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OCCASIONS ONLINE 2014
OCCASIONS ONLINE 2014 A Collection of Prize-Winning Works Produced by Students in the Program for Writing & Rhetoric Copy-editor: Dr. Peter Kratze Managing Editor and Layout: Alex Mancero Cover Photo: Alex Mancero and Rachel Schmitt Associate Editor: Rachel Schmitt Associate Editor: Albert Opraseuth Associate Editor: Merissa Hirneisen © University of Colorado OCCASIONS OCCASIONS TABLE OF CONTENTS LEALA SMITH | Argument Category, 1st Place Winner “Paleobsession” Evaluates the socio-dietary to the “caveman” Paleo Diet, concluding with a plea for moderation. 4 KELSEY HARBERT | PWR Diversity Writing Awards “Child Soldiers: More Than Meets the Eye” Probes the problem of understanding the treating child soldiers. 33 BRY KRING | Argument Category, 2nd Place Winner “The Contradiction Within Cosmopolitan: Is it Telling Us Something About Society?” Critiques how the rhetorical (and highly sexualized) appeals of Cosmopolitan to its audience of women goes againstthe grain of feminism. 9 JESSE WISNIEWSKI | Upper Division Arts & Sciences Prize “The Hind” Contemplates the sight of an old Russian attack helicopter in giving pause about the meaning and use of war. 37 SAIKRIPA RADHAKRISHNAN | Macksion Engineering Prize “Identification of the Integrin Subunits Within Bovine Chondrocyte Cells for Tethering to PEG-thiol Hydrogels” Studies “one variable that makes the hydrogel more biomimetic: the tethering mechanism between the integrins on the cell surface and the extracellular matrix.” 39 EMMA GARDNER | Creative Nonfiction Prize (1st Place Tie) “Hole-y Devotion” Recounts the moment--and social consequences--of denying the existence of God. 43 ZACH HYKAN | Creative Nonfiction Prize (1st Place Tie) “Destruction Through a Screen” Narrates the discovery of how playing video war games differs from watching real footage. 46 J.P. WHITEHEAD, Creative Nonfiction Prize (1st Place Tie) “Maintaining Balance at Sea” Meditates about life, love, and loss in adolescence. 48 HANNA LE | Inquiry Category, 1st Place Winner “The Color of Justice: Culpability and Change in an Era of Punitiveness” Analyzes the myths and realities of the War on Drugs and its effect on black populations. 13 ZOE PASTERNACK | Inquiry Category, 2nd Place Winner “A New Kind of ‘Natural’ Design” Explores the use of natural forms and processes to create new inventions for human use, otherwise known as bio mimicry (or biomimetics). 17 TRAVIS COBB | Narrative Category, 1st Place Winner “Of Dragons and Tips” Depicts how the bright side of life can go suddenly dark. 21 KIMBERLY PRESTON | Narrative Category, 2nd Place Winner & Diversity Award, 2nd Place Winner “Becoming Changing Woman” Describes the coming-of-age ritual for a young Navajo woman. 26 EMMA SALDITT | Business Writing Prize “Subsidizing Inequality: The Socioeconomic Effects of the North American Free Trade Agreement on Mexican Corn Producers” Investigates how NAFTA has not delivered on its promise to help Mexican corn famers. 28 2 3 OCCASIONS This sounds like a magic, sustainable, and truly helpful diet--until you begin to flip through a Paleo cookbook, or talk to a Paleo dieter, and realize that the majority of the diet consists of eating hearty red meats, and it gives permission to freely eat a large daily portion of thick lined bacon, as long as some vegetables go with it. Paleobsession By Leala Smith W ith our world’s rapid modernity, health nuts around the globe grow hungry for new magic diets and food fads to keep their waistlines slim. When I established my fitness company and website Miss Strong last year, people began asking me to write their diet plans according to the “Paleo diet” with high hopes of their sporting washboard abs and fitting into their flouncy summertime bikinis. My clients and readers wanted to follow a restricted diet because they were convinced that cutting certain foods would lead to success. The girls reading my website expressed their concern that carbohydrates were “making them fat” and that they wanted to adhere to a fad diet that would emphasize only protein. Feeling ambitious and wondering if this approach would be effective, I decided to experiment with the Paleo diet before putting others on it. After a couple agonizing months, my roommates found me limply lying across the kitchen floor, crawling to the refrigerator and begging for a bagel and some chocolate milk. The Paleo diet is simply not sustainable for our evolved physiological needs as human beings. The growth of a 10,000-year-old belief in the historical Paleolithic lifestyle has begun to spread through gyms, books, kitchens, magazines, and sports, sparking the controversial idea that in order to achieve optimal health, we must eat like our caveman ancestors. While many people praise the effectiveness and sustainability of eating a raw diet based off the hunter-gatherer approach to food, others challenge the new diet fad and must stop to wonder how sustainable the Paleo diet truly is for our modern and developed needs. The small question regarding whether a human can effectively live off vegetables, meat, and seeds raises a much deeper one: Is the modern human in truth still a Paleolithic hominoid? Due to the civilization of global societies, cultivation of agriculture, and advanced development of our human anatomy and physiques, the godlike and barbaric portrayal of our ancient primal ancestors, we no longer are; having a well-balanced and wholesome diet and consuming whole grains, dairy, and starchy carbohydrates is more sustainable for our current lifestyle than a diet tailored to fit the needs of our Paleolithic ancestors of over 10,000 years ago. The theory behind the Paleo diet is simple. Paleo lovers strongly believe that the digestive system and body of the modernday human was not originally created to process foods like sugars, grains, legumes, dairy products, or starchy carbohydrates, so we should not put stress on our bodies today by consuming these foods. Every Paleo website and book asserts that the consumption of these foods and the introduction of them into our diet over the past 10,000 years has created increased obesity and weight gain as well as high disease rates and shorter life spans. Dr. Loren Cordain, the world’s leading expert of the Paleo Diet and a professor at Colorado State University, states in big bold letters atop her website, “The Paleo Diet, the world’s healthiest diet . . . reduce your risk of heart disease, type 2 diabetes, and most chronic degenerative diseases that affect people in the Western world. . . . [L]ose weight if you’re overweight, enjoy a longer life.” The belief is that by sticking to the menus and food selections our Stone Age ancestors ate, we can avoid an unhealthy lifestyle, excessive weight gain, and all other illnesses and disease risks that snowballed after the Agricultural Era, when civilization blossomed and people began farming, cooking, refining and canning foods in an “unnatural” way. Books such as the bestselling Paleo Solution by scientist and trainer Robb Wolf (considered to be the Paleo bible for caveman advocates) asserts these claims and mentions that the diet can severely lower cholesterol levels and blood pressure, decrease a person’s BMI, weight, body-fat percentage, and tissue inflammation and that our Paleo ancestors rarely suffered from any disease (15). In addition to the words of Wolf and Cordain, other well-known Paleo experts such as Mark While Paleo promoters are constantly stocking their refrigerators with lavish types of meat and cooking large portions of Chorizo sausage and bison for every meal, true hunter-gatherers were not selecting breakfast options from a spread of five different protein sources at the drop of a hat. we are no longer cavemen clad in loincloth around our waists with clubs of raw meat dripping from our fists. As human beings, we have adapted to the evolution of our environment over thousands of years. Although it would be wonderful to identify ourselves with OCCASIONS Sisson argue that our ancestors were healthier, stronger, and better off (www.marksdailyapple.com)--an interesting concept frowned on by others who wonder why, then, the entire Paleolithic era died off thousands of years ago. 4 Because the Paleo diet sticks to the strict philosophy that we should solely consume what caveman ate for optimal sustainability-meaning meat--almost all food is forbidden in some way because these foods did not exist during the Paleolithic era and because they, of course, are not meat. Sweet potatoes and corn, for example, are crops that were introduced as agriculture and civilization began to bloom and are, therefore, offensive and strictly prohibited along with many other food sources. However, Paleo fanatics who walk into a Whole Foods for their weekly grocery shopping trip are not going to find freshly killed wild boar or raw deer meat to take home and are, therefore, presented with a sticky dilemma. Our world has changed and so has the food available to us. It is hard to understand, then, if we are to solely eat what the cavemen ate, why certain foods are acceptable in the modern day Paleo diet. Cooked meat, for example, is considered a Paleo staple, yet cavemen spent their lives hunting animals and eating their raw meat to stay alive. Our modern culture does not supply exactly what the caveman ate, so we do not have access to a slab of freshly sliced mammoth in the local butcher shop. Even grass-fed meat can be fed off artificial fertilizers, and, therefore, almost all food in presentday society should not be Paleo approved. As Tamsin O’Connell, a researcher for a Paleolithic archaeology study at the University of Cambridge, points out, “Instead [of cavemen eating the modern day Paleo diet, the first farmers, who lived around 12,000 years ago, likely ate no more than 40 to 50 percent of their protein from animal sources. Those people ate a diet more similar to subsistence farmers in modern-day India or China. Hunter-gatherers from the Paleolithic period also ate less meat.” (para. 9). As modern-day Paleo followers crack down on strict diet limits and inform others that they consume only what the Paleolithic caveman ate, they are, in fact, eating many foods that were not available during the Paleolithic Era and refusing many foods that were. While followers of the hunter-gatherer diet detest the concept of farmed food and the agricultural period, O’Connell’s statement proves Paleo diet fanatics have chronological misconceptions about the introduction of food and agriculture in history (the Paleolithic Era was 10,000 years ago, and the first farmers lived 12,000 years ago). According to the diet and all my CrossFit friends, followers may not eat the sweet potato even though the entire African continent has been living off the yam since our species began roaming the earth. The white potato is also unacceptable in the Paleo diet; the potato has existed for 35,000 years, thriving well before Paleolithic peoples roamed the earth, yet, for some reason, it has been discounted. Turkey is one of the most popular and emphasized protein sources in a Paleo dieter’s kitchen, yet, interestingly, this type of poultry was not introduced into Europe until the 16th century. Men thousands of years ago were not using substitutions for grain and dairy products like baking with almond flour and buying high-priced organic almond milk. Author Denis Murphy revealed in his publication People, Plants and Genes: The Story of Crops and Humanity that although the Paleo diet looks down on grains, “cereal grain” is a food source humans in all different global locations have been consuming for over 200,000 years (pg 25). This time-span greatly pre-dates the Paleolithic era, which occurred 10,000 years ago. In addition to historical time inconsistencies, many geographical inconsistencies challenge our present-day claim to how cavemen ate in the past. The modern-day Paleo diet is based off 67% animal sources and 33% plants, according to Mark’s Daily Apple. People forget cavemen did not live in only one part of the globe during this time, and, therefore, while some cultural Paleolithic groups may have eaten a diet solely based on meat because their environment lacked the availability of plants, other groups in places such as Africa may have had an entirely different, and more lenient, diet. According to the article “Hunter-gatherers and Human Evolution,” published in the journal Evolutionary Anthropology, the diet of a caveman was location-dependent, and hunters killed only several large animals in their entire lifetime. In colder climates with cultural groups like the Inuits, meat was emphasized for fat, warmth, and insulation purposes. In lower latitudes and warmer climates, plants were greatly sought after. In fact, recorded studies of a tribal group in New Guinea reveal that the typical caveman diet actually consisted of 50% plants and 25% meat (54-67). While Paleo promoters are constantly stocking their refrigerators with lavish types of meat and cooking large portions of Chorizo sausage and bison for every meal, true huntergatherers were not selecting breakfast options from a spread of five different protein sources at the drop of a hat. Katharine Milton studied the African Kung tribe, which is famous for living a hunter-gatherer lifestyle, and she recorded her results in The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition. Surprisingly, their diet was 67% plants and not focused on high meat and protein whatsoever (para. 13). Therefore, anthropological examination of food availability to different Paleolithic groups varied globally and cannot be based off the one small location on the map where people happened to prefer flanks instead of broccoli. Many Paleo-diet lovers argue that the Paleo diet excludes foods like grains and, therefore, encourages a longer life span by limiting high blood pressure, heart disease, diabetes, and insulin resistance. Paleo founders and followers say that these diseases were brought about after the Agricultural period within the New World and, hence, the introduction of cultivated, unnatural foods like rice, corn, and oats. Nora T. Gedguadas, one of the world’s leading experts on Paleo nutrition and author of the international-selling book Primal Body: Primal Mind. Beyond the Paleo Diet for Total Health and A Longer Life, states in a radio interview, I don’t find any health aspects in grains. We’re not designed for grains as a primary food source. No human people group in the history of human species has ever eaten a diet based off of USDA standards for grains. If you are in the wilderness and cold, you aren’t dreaming of a salad. Grains will not be readily available. [The president of the dental association] set out across the world to study cultures that were primitive and traditional. He went to the Aborigines in Australia, the Inuits, the Outer Emirates, 5 OCCASIONS the ancient Celtic Aisles. . . . [F]oods that were most important to them were the most fat nutrient dense foods. . . . He saw rapid deterioration in health; many more birth defects and teeth defects in the Western dietary approach. (Red Ice Radio) Although I agree that cultures throughout our world have been depending on natural resources such as fat and meat for thousands of years in order to survive, there is no direct link between grains like oatmeal and rice and the cause decay and disease. My friend likes to eat a giant bowl of oatmeal every morning for breakfast despite the horror of Paleo followers, and she, surprisingly, has a wonderful white smile. The Inuits have never had a custom of slicing bread and eating it with jam for survival; instead they utilize whale fat and naturally seek foods that are denser in calories to help insulate them. My friend, and almost everyone else in our modern society, lives in our current evolved society and uses a heating system, so she does not need to feast off bowls of whale fat instead of grains. Gedguadas asserts that there has never been a human species that has eaten a diet based off the high USDA standards of grains and legumes besides our modern Western society (Red Ice Radio). However, let’s not forget about modern-day phenomenal discoveries of societies like Okinawa, Japan, and Sardinia, Italy. Okinawa is 400 miles south of the coast of Japan, resting among a chain of distant Asian islands in the Pacific Ocean. Although absolutely beautiful, the island is not known for its breathtaking landscape and blue oceans. Instead, Okinawa stands as home to the largest population of humans who live over the age of 100 and who have proven to host the longest life spans in our entire world, as published in Nadine DeNinno’s International Business Time’s article, “The Okinawa Diet May Be the Key to Longevity” (para. 2). On average, an islander lives to be 110 years old and lives a productive and active life up until death. Because Okinawa sports the longest living human life expectancies, scientists set out to discover what the secret to longevity truly is and why Japanese on Okinawa are some of the healthiest human beings on the planet. Researchers and scientists concluded that the residents of Okinawa live well past the age of 100 for one specific reason: their food selection. So, what is the magical secret to nutrition that promotes proven longevity and health? I first heard about the Okinawa diet from the very back seat of my college nutrition class last semester. Interestingly, the diet barely includes any meat, eggs, or poultry. In fact, the Okinawa diet is highly based off whole grains and legumes and incredibly low in fat--the exact opposite belief of Paleo dieters. This new diet approach it outlined in the New York Times bestselling book The Okinawa Diet Plan: Get Leaner, Live Longer, and Never Feel Hungry, written by Dr. Craig Willcox and Makato Suzuki. Counter to the Paleolithic dieter’s belief of eating as much of a food as your body needs until full, the Okinawa islanders practice Hari Bachi Bu, the practice of eating a small amount and waiting until the stomach has processed what has been consumed. This practice leads to a 20% less calorie consumption than the regular Japanese diet (Nelson). Overall, this more sustainable and wholesome diet leads to longterm health maintenance and success. By following a well-rounded diet, Japanese don’t suffer from yo-yo dieting or food deprivation. Because they are happy and healthy, they are able to maintain a certain pattern of eating over the course of a lifetime and not just over the course of several months. Japan is not the only location on our globe where people live well past the age of 100. On the Mediterranean island of Sardinia, Italy, local Italians spend their days drinking lots of red wine, laughing over large bowls of pasta and bread, and consuming large amounts of goat milk, cheese, and fresh fruit, creating an overall diet low in saturated fat. In fact, the “Mediterranean” philosophy of both diet and lifestyle has been called one of the “top eight most popular diets” in the online database Medical News Today while an Italian study written up in the BMJ Medical Journal noted that “adherence to the Mediterranean style diet produces a better Health Related Quality of Life (HQRL) and an increase in both mental and physical health” (Bonaccio). Dan Buettner, New York Times bestselling author of The Blue Zones: Lessons For Living Longer From the People who Have Lived the Longest, points out that the global phenomenon of expanded human life-spans based off high grain diets has also been proven in longevity hot spots like Ikaria, Greece, and Nicoya, Costa Rica. Costa Ricans swear that their longevity is based off daily consumption of bright fresh fruits, corn, and rice while Greeks in Ikaria testify that they eat lots of whole grains and fish (The Blue Zones). Buettner’s book also points out that chronic diseases are rarely encountered in the Ikaria region, where residents experience 20% lower cancer rates while their occurrences of cardiovascular disease have been cut in half (34). More people should be laughing over a glass of red wine every day in Sardinia rather than worrying about fad diets and how many almonds they’re eating in a meal. In fact, cavemen did not live long enough to experience disease and, therefore, did not have the chance to experience longevity, either. They did not experience ailments of the aging human body, such as inflammation or increased disease risk, because they didn’t live long enough to see life past the age of fifty. Cultural groups like the Japanese and Italians obviously live longer lives than our cavemen ancestors did. In fact, a researcher from the Center of Aging at the University of Chicago bluntly stated, “There is neither convincing evidence nor scientific logic to support the claim that adherence to a Paleolithic diet provides a longevity benefit” (191). If this fact were pointed out to a Paleo believer, he would emphasize that today’s Paleo community does not suffer from as many diseases as those who eat a “normal” diet. Yet, as science has recently proven, our current health problems as human beings result not from our diet but from our imbalanced calorie consumption versus calorie expenditure. While reading through my personal training book several years ago, I noted that imbalanced calorie consumption is what causes weight gain, disease, and premature death. Too much of anything is not good, regardless of whether you are eating large amounts of bread or Paleo-clean meals. Overconsumption of calorie-dense, highly saturated fatty foods such as bacon leads to the formation of diseases like high blood pressure and cardiovascular disease and strays from a healthy path towards longevity. Many people have started to believe that high-fat diets that also emphasize protein, specifically like the Paleo diet, help to keep waistlines slim and actually increase weight loss as oppose to fat gain. “Paleo Diet Online” is one of the most well-known and reliable Web sources for Paleo enthusiasts and provides quick access to data and a plethora of published books, all Paleo related. Regarding the benefits of a high-fat protein-rich diet, Dr. Loren Cordian states on her website, 6 OCCASIONS Protein has two to three times the thermic effect of either fat or carbohydrate, meaning that it revs up your metabolism, speeding weight loss. . . . [I]t has a much greater satiety value . . . so it puts the breaks on your appetite. Numerous clinical trials have shown high-protein, low-glycemic load diets are more effective than low-fat, high–carbohydrate diets in promoting weight-loss and keeping it off.” Paleo experts continue to argue that eating a diet incredibly high in protein controls appetite levels, keeps fat off and helps promote the decrease of diseases like diabetes and hypertension. (The Paleo Diet FAQ) The emphasis placed on the health benefits of protein in the Paleo diet, however, actually raise some very dangerous health concerns. As I learned from numerous college lectures on nutrition and human health performance, overconsumption of protein for long periods of time, or an unbalanced diet high in protein like meat, leads to severe health conditions and fat gain. When we feed the body too much protein, we do not create bigger muscles but, instead, store and convert the protein into fat because the body simply cannot use up overloaded amounts. When we over consume protein, we subject our bodies to the risks of kidney stones, coronary disease, varieties of cancer, osteoporosis, and an accumulation of ketones in the body that lead to organ damage, according to the American Heart Association (para. 5). Besides health consequences of our solely consuming proteins like meat, when we cut foods like dairy from the diet, we do not create a slimmer life and backside. As a protein source, dairy is a definite no-no for the Paleo lover, yet almost all weight-loss help websites, advice columns, articles, and magazines targeted for those trying to lose belly fat recommend other forms of high-protein rich foods besides meat. Tell the striking and jolly Italians that cheese is unacceptable, and they’ll most likely laugh in your face. Dairy and cheese are a huge part of the Italian diet and lifestyle, and Italians still remain healthy, happy, and well-rounded. Dairy is a category that is feared by Paleo believers. Because dairy doesn’t quite appear to fit the standards of a raw slab of meat, it is strictly forbidden in the Paleo community and considered unacceptable. Web source Paleo Diet Lifestyle claims that because dairy “Was simply not consumed during the Paleolithic era, we are not supposed to drink the milk of other animals besides our own species, and the consumption of dairy promotes high insulin levels in the body, relating to weight control problems” (para. 7). Interestingly, our consuming thick strips of bacon daily for almost every meal does not lead to worries of weight control problems for the Paleo dieter, yet low-fat dairy does. While ignoring a yogurt cup on the table and reaching for a chunk of meat, a die-hard Paleo lover may fail to realize that low-fat dairy is also loaded with essential vitamins like calcium, which strengthens bones, increases fat breakdown in cells, decreases inflammation, increases intestinal function, and provides fantastic probiotic bacteria. When we consume forms of dairy like milk, cheese, and yogurt, we stay satiated, preserve muscle, increase metabolism, and aid in fat excretion. A study conducted by Michael Zemel, PhD, Professor of Medicine and Nutrition at the University of Tennessee, highlights not only these phenomenal health benefits (51) but also provides a record for a weight loss statistic study involving dairy consumption. Quite simply stated by Zemel, “If you compare a dairy-rich versus a dairy-poor diet you can nearly double the rate of weight and fat loss with the same level of calorie restriction.” In other words, we shouldn’t worry so much about searing free-range chicken breasts for every single meal but instead should move on to our well-deserved Greek yogurt. While dairy may be marked off the acceptable food list in the Paleo diet because cavemen did not indulge in ice cream (yet for some reason must have been churning butter because butter is commonly used in all Paleo cookbooks), our human bodies have adapted and evolved in a short historical time span to tolerate foods today that the cavemen may have relinquished in the past. Some argue that cavemen did not even have a tolerance for certain foods. Katharine Milton, a Professor of Physical Anthropology from the University of California / Berkeley, declares, “There is little evidience [sic] to suggest that human nutritional requirements or human digestive physiology were significantly affected by such diets at any point in human evolution” (483). Therefore, under what circumstances did creators of the Paleo diet feel the need to exclude particular foods? Who knows? We may not have been intolerant at all in the past. Scientists who argue for a Paleolithic lifestyle demand that 10,000 years is simply not enough time for the human digestive system to handle newly farmed and created foods (like ice cream and yogurt). Then again, the entire continent of Europe has significantly increased their lactose tolerance in the past thousands of years. The entire country of France is die-hard nationalist for high-priced cheese and heavy cream. My Physical Anthropology course emphasizes that within just two thousand years time, human beings have significantly increased their production of digestive elements such Salivary Amylase, an enzyme that helps to break down starchy foods such as the Paleo phobic white potato and corn. The next time you’re sitting at a restaurant and reach for a roll and some butter, know that your body will, in truth, be able to handle proper digestion, just as it has for thousands of years. The idea of our barbarian ancestors traipsing through caves with flawless six packs and masculine Zeus hair is incredibly inspiring; maybe, if we emulate our Paleolithic predecessors, we, too, can sport immaculate god-like beach bodies and be strong, healthy, efficient, and long-lived. The Paleo diet hopes that the caveman can teach us how we should return to eating because our modern and fast society has introduced so many unhealthy habits and food choices. However, we do not need to go to the extreme with a diet to be strong, healthy, and happy, as I continually highlight on my website and try to promote among readers. Many minute details can be analyzed and disproven with the Paleo diet, including its health benefits, sustainability, effectiveness, historical and global origins, and overall validity. Yet, the lesson to be learned is not whether dairy is a healthy choice, whether you should eat your grandma’s potato stew when you go to visit, or whether bacon suffices for an appropriate breakfast. The lesson to be learned is that everyone has created some form of a diet that she claims is the true, right way to eat. Human beings are active and live demanding lifestyles. Our bodies will crave the food sources they need to continue sustainable living, and instead of denying yourself the foods your body wants because of a strict diet like Paleo, you should respect what your body asks for; the human body will naturally crave what it needs, and this is how our ancestors managed to survive thousands of years ago. The right way does not include carb-depleting, dairy-restricting, or sweet-potato-forgoing because people don’t think it sprouted from the ground 10,000 years ago. Life is more enjoyable when I look forward 7 OCCASIONS to eating a whole-wheat bagel or a handful of granola without punishment. Your body will take in what it needs, when it needs it. Socrates once stated, “You should eat to live, and not live to eat.” This was the philosophy of our true caveman ancestors, who hunted and ate what they could to simply survive. You should center your diet around what is wholesome and sustainable for you, and your lifestyle. A diet that includes grains, beans, vegetables, lean protein, and good fat is just as effective as any other. True sustainability and longevity comes not from an attempted emulation of the past but from the development of good choices in the present. Sisson, Mark. “Marks Daily Apple.” Marks Daily Apple RSS. N.p., n.d. Web. 10 Jan. 2014. Bonaccio, Marialaura, Augusto Di Castelnuovo, et al. “Adherence to a Mediterranean Diet Is Associated with a Better HealthRelated Quality of Life: A Possible Role of High Dietary Antioxidant Content.” BMJ Open. 3.8 (2013): n. page. Web. 9 Dec. 2013. “Weight Loss and Dairy.” WebMD. WebMD, 16 Apr. 2004. Web. 7 Dec. 2013. “What Is the Mediterranean Diet? What Are the Benefits of the Mediterranean Diet?” Medical News Today. MediLexicon International, 6 May 2009. Web. 6 Dec. 2013. Willcox, Bradley J. The Okinawa Diet Plan: Get Leaner, Live Longer, and Never Feel Hungry. New York: Clarkson Potter, 2004. Print. Cordain, Loren. “About the Paleo Diet.” The Paleo Diet. N.p., n.d. Web. 29 Dec. 2013. Wolf, Robb. The Paleo Solution: The Original Human Diet. Las Vegas: Victory Belt, 2010. Print. ---. “The Paleo Diet FAQ.” The Paleo Diet RSS. Dr. Loren Cordain, n.d. Web. 8 Dec. 2013. Dan, Buettner. The Blue Zones: Lessons for Living Longer. Washington D.C: National Geographic Society, 2008. Print. DeNinno, Nadine. “The Okinawa Diet May Be the Key to Longevity and Help You Live 100-Years-Old.” International Business Times. N.p., 10 Jul 2013. Web. 29 Jan 2014. Ghose, Tia, and Tamsin O’Connell. “Caveman Diet Secret: Less Red Meat, More Plants.” LiveScience. TechMedia Network, 25 Oct. 2012. Web. 3 Jan. 2014. “High-Protein Diets.” High-Protein Diets. American Heart Association, 3 Jan. 2012. Web. 8 Dec. 2013. T he airplane was stuffy, loud, and crowded. I sat in my middle seat, sandwiched between two people. Needing some entertainment and distraction from all the chaos, I reached into the carry-on bag at my feet and pulled out Cosmopolitan, October 2013 edition. I looked at the cover; it read, “12 Kinky Quickies that’ll grab him,” “What 90% of men are fantasizing about,” and “flatten your abs--fast.” As I dove into the articles about ways to improve my body, hair, skin, and, most importantly sex life, I suddenly tuned into a feeling that I noticed myself having: a decreasing amount of selfconfidence. I stopped reading, very perplexed. If this magazine was making me feel bad about myself, when I usually am pretty darn happy with myself, why was I reading it? What was I learning from it? I realized that all I was learning was that there were a million ways to improve my body and myself, superficially. In other words, I was being told that there were a million ways in which who I am naturally was inadequate. I felt a wave of confusion and frustration on realizing this. I was reading a “women’s magazine,” something that was supposedly empowering to me. However, if this were the case, then why was this magazine telling me, step by step, how I should change and construct myself into what basically seemed to be the very object of a man’s desire? The magazine explained how to have the perfect body, hair, and skin and to be great in bed. Why had I spent $4.99 for something to tell me how many improvements I needed to make? This was shocking to come to this realization because I have been reading women’s magazines for many years. Cosmopolitan is my go-to magazine for distraction and entertainment, and has been for years. I immediately felt ashamed of myself and wondered if my female college-age peers had ever questioned this magazine. I consider myself a feminist and someone who is very aware of the possible sexist or repressive things that surround me. I am active in a women’s group on campus and hold a position on the board of the Women’s Resource Center. Needless to say, I have always been one to speak up, very much so, in the face of oppression against women. So, how could I have been so blind? What it is that Cosmopolitan is trying to tell me and make me feel? Among the many swarming questions in my head, one particularly frightening question stuck with me: are women my age being harmed when turning to this magazine--as we so frequently do--for entertainment and advice? Marlowe, Frank M. “Hunter-gatherers and Human Evolution.” Evolutionary Anthropology 14.2 (2005): 54-67. Web. Milton, Katharine. “Primate Foods Have Relevance to Human Health.” Nutrition 16 (2000): 480-83. Web. 5 Jan. 2014. Murphy, Denis J. People, Plants, and Genes: The Story of Crops and Humanity. Oxford: Oxford UP, 2007. Print. Nora, Gedguadas. “The Paleo Diet: Primal Body & Primal Mind.” Red Ice Radio. 12 June 2012. 06 Jun 2012. Radio. I took a look at the magazine in a much more objective way, and I dissected it, exploring the range of its contents. In doing so, I decided that the magazine had two key components that were the themes of the magazine. These themes, I concluded, were physical beauty and hyper-sexuality. Paleo Diet. Web. 9 Dec. 2013. Occasions Home By Bry Kring Suzanne, Nelson. “Okinawa Diet.” Nutrition and Human Performance, U of Colorado/Boulder, Boulder, Colorado. 06 Nov. 2013. Lecture. Borre, Scott. “Some Info on Bryan Clay---CrossFit Discussion Board.” CrossFit Discussion Board RSS. CrossFit, 4 Aug. 2008. Web. 11 Dec. 2013 Contents The Contradiction Within Cosmopolitan: Is It Telling Us About Society? Stone, Matt. “12 Paleo Myths.” 180 Degree Health. 180 Degree Health, 03, 2012. Image. Web. 11 Dec 2013. Vales, Josh. “Here’s 8+ Reasons the Paleo Diet Should be Extinct.” Outlaw Fitness RSS. N.p., 21 Jan. 2013. Web. 7 Dec. 2013. Works Cited OCCASIONS PWR Home 8 External Beauty and Body Image The topic of physical and external beauty appears to be highly important in Cosmopolitan. When looking specifically at the October edition, I notice that every single ad--be it for DKNY jeans, OPI nail polish, Diet Coke, Rimmel mascara, Herbal Essence body wash, Pulsar Watches, etc.--features a white, stick-thin, young, airbrushed, and very beautiful woman. It is not just the ads in the magazine that depict skinny, airbrushed women, however. Articles about the importance of physical beauty accompany these ads as well. In this particular edition of Cosmopolitan, there is an article about Botox in which a woman claims that because of Botox, she feels “better-than-ever.” She is quoted saying that she would “totally do it again!” (Cosmopolitan, p. 114). As I almost reach the end of the magazine, I turn to an article about sushi and how it is the “secret calorie bomb!” while warning women that it is packed full of hidden calories and to stay away from it (Cosmopolitan, p. 214). This page also gives tips for how to order items with the fewest calories at Starbucks, Subway, and other popular chain-franchises (p. 214). The page following the food page is an article about working out. This workout page shows a model wearing spandex and a sports-bra, stretching. Underneath her, there are advertisements for workout clothing and next to them are the words “LOOK BETTER WHILE SWEATING” (Cosmopolitan. p. 216). This page also offers speedy workouts that can be done on-the-go to burn quick calories. As I turn through these pages, I notice that the Botox ads, food and calorie information, and quick workouts are disguised in ways that make them seem like light-and-fun topics that are easyto-read. But are these ads and specific articles telling me? They are pointing out that something natural--aging--is ugly. They are warning me to not eat certain foods because they will make me fat. And they are telling me that I need to be fitting in quick workouts here and there throughout my day. I reexamine my emotions now; how am I feeling? At this point, I feel pretty inadequate. Although I do not consider myself old, I am, naturally, getting older. After reading the articles on the importance of keeping one’s skin looking young, I find myself dreading the wrinkles that will, inevitably, begin to appear as I get older. I consider myself athletic, and I exercise regularly. However, I had never heard of the workouts these articles promoted before. This made me feel inadequate and even senseless for not making time for these quick workouts in my everyday schedule, as the article suggested. On labeling my emotions after reading these portions of the magazine, I stepped back from the magazine again. Why do I need to do these things that the magazine is telling me again? Oh, right: so that I can look like the women in the advertisements whom I see on every other page of the magazine. The message that I was receiving was that what is most important about me, a woman, is my external appearance. 9 OCCASIONS This realization is not unique to me, and many others have also examined Cosmopolitan’s promotion of the need for physical selfimprovement. Many sociologists and authors of academic literature agree that promoting beauty ideals with such high importance is harmful to women because it only stresses the importance of one’s superficial appearance (Hu & Wang, 2009. p. 1). It is very normal and perfectly fine for a person to desire to be attractive. However, if there is too much emphasis put on external appearance--as Cosmopolitan suggests--this can become unhealthy and problematic. Fan Hu and her colleagues attended a conference that discussed the connection between women’s magazines and body image (2009). The conference spoke about how, in a conducted study around the magazines, college age women reported feeling severe body dissatisfaction and “appearance-related concerns” after reading the contents of the women’s magazines (Hu & Wang, 2009. p. 15). Even women who reported feeling very pleased with their bodies--who had no preexisting appearance related dissatisfaction--reported feeling negatively towards their bodies (Hu & Wang, 2009. p. 14). Thus, Hu and Wang conclude that a woman’s body images, especially those of college age women, can be drastically and negatively affected by this magazine (2009. p. 15). Promotion of Sexuality Sexuality is, noticeably, a fundamental component to Cosmopolitan. Promotion of sexuality, overly sexualized women, and information on ways to be better at sex can be found on nearly every page of the magazine. One does not even have to open the magazine to learn that; he or she can simply look at the cover. In the October 2013 edition, the cover’s advertised articles are “12 Kinky Tricks,” “grab him and get it on!” and “Ways to get getter at sex.” Not to mention the cover picture is of Jennifer Lopez, who is only sporting a leather, halter bra that leaves half of her breasts exposed. She is pictured tugging down on the waist of a pair of see-through lace “pants.” Cosmopolitan has an entire section called “Love, Lust, and Other Stuff.” This section has all sorts of information on a woman’s sex-life and how she can--or needs to--spice it up. In October’s edition, the “Love and Lust” section begins with an article called “12 Kinky Quickies--(just because!)” (p. 156). This article gives 12 snippets of ways in which a woman should be sexually adventurous in the bedroom in order to become “happier and more secure in her relationship” (p. 156). This article is followed by a two-page article called “Just a Touch” about their sex lives and relationship concerns. The topics covered in this article range from how to make oneself more enthusiastic about sex, to how to deal with the bad smell of semen, to more (p. 170). The topic of sexuality is certainly never lacking when flipping through any issue of Cosmopolitan. Nearly all the images of a woman in the magazine, be it in an ad or article, is a very sexualized looking woman. She is scantily clad, dolled-up with makeup, posed in a suggestive position, or has her mouth open and a “come-hither” look in her eyes. So, what is the obsession and need for hyper-sexuality in Cosmopolitan? There are many scholars who have something to say on the matter, and some of it is surprising. Various scholarly authors will argue that the promotion of sexuality is not a negative aspect to the magazine. They claim that magazines such as Cosmopolitan are important and positive for society because they helps to promote the liberation, independence, and power of women (Hunt, 2012, p. 135). Hunt (2012) claims that “[Cosmopolitan is] founded on the core values of independence, power, and fun” (p. 135) and that Cosmopolitan strongly promotes and celebrates women’s sexuality because there is a correlation between a woman’s sexuality and her liberation (p. 132). David Machin, a PhD in Cultural and Media Studies, claims that one reason why a woman’s sexuality is considered powerful and liberating is because women can use their looks and sexuality to get what they want (Machin, 2003). When thinking about this claim made by Machin, I wondered what sorts of things he could be referring to when saying that we use our sexuality to get what we want. Does he literally mean that we can trade sexual acts for material things that we want? I didn’t think he meant it this way. Instead, I concluded that he means that we women use our looks look and the idea of sexuality to our advantage over men. As a woman, had I ever done this? My thoughts were brought back to when I lived in Mexico three years ago, and my friends and I would get dressed up (short dresses and heels) and go out at night. I never had to pay an entry-fee to any place I went out to. The doormen would grant me free entrance into the club, along with a sometimescreepy-and-sometimes-sweet remark pertaining to my appearance. This was presumably because the bouncers at the door were men who liked the way that I looked. Of course, I never minded having no cover charge, but I began to wonder if this was the type of thing that Machin was referring to. Although I was not engaging in physical It seems like the use of a woman’s sexuality is a way in which she can assert a type of control over men. Perhaps this is why Cosmopolitan so commonly promotes hypersexuality in their articles. It is founded by the idea that there is a correlation between power and sexuality. OCCASIONS When thinking of other, and much more drastic, examples of a woman using her sexuality to get something, I can imagine using it to get a job or a raise. It seems as if the use of a woman’s sexuality is a way in which she can assert a type of control over men. Perhaps this is why Cosmopolitan so commonly promotes hyper-sexuality in their articles. It is founded by the idea that there is a correlation between power and sexuality. Typically speaking, men seem to be more motivated by their drives for sex. Thus, by looking and acting in a way that is overly sexual, women can use this against men. Essentially, this is a form of taking advantage of a man’s weakness when it comes to their motivation for sex. The idea that it is liberating for a woman to take advantage of how men are more sexually driven does not strike me as real power. Instead, I see this as a form of manipulation. When I was granted free entry into the club, this was a type of manipulation on my part. I was using my external appearance and the idea of my sexuality in order to get something that I wanted from these men. This, however, is not a type of inherent power. Rather, it is a fleeting form of power that means that a woman--only if she looks “sexy” enough--can get what she wants on certain occasions. The fact that I was granted free entry did not make me a smarter and more powerful woman, inherently. No, it simply told me that what I was wearing and what I looked like made the men want to grant me something in those few moments that I spent outside of the club. This is not true power. Instead, it is fleeting, shallow, and completely dependent on superficial appearance. Therefore, its appears problematic to claim that the hyper-sexuality promoted in Cosmopolitan liberates women (Machin, 2003, p. 456). If someone is liberated only because of her sexuality, is not this a form of objectification itself ? It is simply another way of saying that a woman’s only power and value is through something completely superficial: her body. This just further perpetuates the issue of the objectification of women--it is not something liberating or empowering (Chirita, 2012, p. 11). Instead, it is a false sense of liberation that makes a woman link her idea of independence with her sexuality (Moran, 2011, p. 161). This creates simply the illusion of power, when in reality it just reduces the woman down to an object (of a man’s desire) (Moran, 2011, p. 161, also see Clarke 2009). According to Denisa Chirita, a professor of journalism and communication at the University of Bucharest, this so-called “liberation” that magazines are promoting only makes a woman into something objectified and over-sexualized (2012 p. 11). Chirita claims that the idea of women’s “liberation” through sexuality is something directly contradictory to the mission of feminism posed in the twentieth century (2012, p. 6; for more on feminism see Endres, 2011, p. 2-4). Perhaps Cosmopolitan could be truly liberating for women if it promoted her power associated with having intellectual ability and being driven and hardworking. Those are all types of power that involve more than the external body and thus would help to create the idea that she is much more than a sexual object of desire. The Appeal of the Magazines (p. 158). Here, Cosmopolitan describes how a woman should touch her man in order to keep the “sizzle” alive in her long-term relationships (p. 158). As I continue flipping through the section, the next article is the “Sex Q & A” (p. 170). Here, women can write in with their questions sexual acts with these men, I was flaunting my external, dolled-up, and sexualized appearance to benefit myself. Was this me using the power of my looks and the idea of my sexuality for manipulative purposes? Perhaps it was, and I had never considered it before. 10 At this point, I have done quite a bit of research and writing on the topic of Cosmopolitan, and I continue to find myself to be attracted to reading Cosmopolitan. So, I am still left with the question of its appeal. What is it that draws me, an active feminist, to pick up and read an issue of Cosmopolitan--when the majority of its contents seem to go so clearly against what I stand for? Undoubtedly, it is not just me who finds it appealing, however, because Cosmopolitan is among the top-selling magazines on the shelves. So why? There are varying opinions on this. Some authors believe that the appeal to the magazine is that it addresses topics and issues about physical or emotional topics that are pertinent to women (Hunt, 2012. p. 138). For example, it covers areas related to women’s physical health, sexual health, and relationship advice (Hunt, 2012, p. 137). This helps to create a feeling of inclusivity and mutual understanding among the readers. Cosmopolitan seems to be able to speak about issues that have been historically been unmentionable or taboo within society, given that they are specific to women. The idea of speaking openly about women’s sexual health, pleasure, and safety is somewhat of a recent development within history. There is a positive aspect to being able to easily and readily acquire information pertinent to women’s health and sexuality. When flipping though October’s issue, readers encounter articles that provide very important information for women to read about. For example, on page 205 is an article titled “Healthy Breasts.” This article talks about scientific research that has just come out about what types of foods to eat to help decrease one’s chances of developing breast cancer. This edition of the magazine also provides information about how to cure a hangover and how to avoid stressing too much. It includes humorous anecdotal stories and “Confessions” where women share their embarrassing moments (Cosmopolitan, p. 230). So, in other words, one of the biggest appeals to Cosmopolitan is that it seems to provide a type of easy entertainment for its readers along with some important female-specific health advice (Xiaowei, 2013. p. 189). This is how I have always used Cosmopolitan: for purely mindless entertainment and escape while in a doctor’s waiting room or, as I described earlier, on the airplane. So, Who is the Real Beneficiary of the Magazine? If a woman is learning to construct herself into what a man wants, her worth then becomes reliant on his opinion of her. In addition, his opinion of her is based completely on superficial grounds: her body and her sexuality. Cosmopolitan promotes the construction of the “ideal” woman. However, this “ideal” woman has been essentially reduced to an object. If a woman is an object, then, by definition, she is not able to claim any sort of equal status as a free individual. Instead, she is defined only by a man’s standards--thus contradicting the fundamental idea of feminism. From what we have seen, Cosmopolitan emphasizes the importance of external beauty and promotes a woman’s use of hypersexuality as her form of power. Although it is a “women’s” magazine, this proves ironic and even contradictory after picking apart each of these components to the magazine. If we take a step back and look at the superficial beauty advice and promotion of hyper-sexuality--the two underlying themes of Cosmopolitan--it seems contradictory. Once analyzed, the sections together seem to serve one purpose: appealing 11 OCCASIONS to the ideals of what it is that a man wants. In fact, the topic of what the woman wants seems to be almost entirely neglected. This itself goes against the foundation of the very basics of feminism. Therefore, what is being promoted must not be for the woman’s benefit. Rather, the two fundamental themes underlying Cosmopolitan seem to be geared towards what it is that a man would want. Minus a few sections specific to women’s health advice and a bit of humor, it seems like men are actually the beneficiaries of this woman’s magazine. Conclusion So, what conclusions can we now justly make about Cosmopolitan? Well, as we have come to realize, it appears that there is a very incongruous aspect within this magazine. It is a “women’s” magazine, meaning it is supposedly something written for us. However, as we have seen, this magazine has components that go directly against the fundaments of what feminism stands for. The idea that something written for women is also antifeminist is a complete contradiction. However, although portions of Cosmopolitan are undoubtedly antifeminist, the magazine continues to be entertaining and beneficial by offering amusing articles and female-specific health information. Thus, Cosmopolitan remains appealing to women--even to one such as me--who consider ourselves active feminists. So, where does that place this magazine in our society today? Endres, K. L. (2011). The feminism of Bernarr Macfadden: Physical culture magazine and the empowerment of women. Media History Monographs, 13 (2), pp. 1-14. Hu, F., & Wang, M. (2009). Beauty and fashion magazines and collegeage women’s appearance-related concerns. Conference Papers-International Communication Association, pp. 1-23. Machin, D., & Thornborrow, J. (2003). Branding and discourse: The case of cosmopolitan. Discourse & Society, 14 (4), pp. 453-471. Moran, C. (2011). On his terms: Representations of sexuality in women’s magazines and the implications for negotiating safe sex. Psychology & Sexuality, 2 (2), p. 159. Xiaowei, H. (2013). A critical study of the contradictory role of women’s magazines. Canadian Social Science, 9(4), 184-205. doi:10.3968/j.css.1923669720130904.2589 By Hanna Le We may think we know how the criminal justice system works. Television is teeming with fictional dramas about police, detectives and prosecutors--shows such as Law & Order, CSI, and Criminal Minds. However, these popularized shows and their spin-offs concentrate on individual stories of crime, victimization, and punishment, and they are usually told from the point of view of law enforcement. The typical storyline is as follows: a (white) police officer solves a horrible crime and achieves a personal and moral victory by arresting the bad guy. These TV shows perpetuate the myth that the primary function of our justice system is to keep our streets safe by finding dangerous criminals and punishing them. They romanticize drug-law enforcement. In reality, the way that the system works bears little (if any) resemblance to what happens on television dramas or in the movies. For instance, many people never meet with an attorney, police regularly stop and search people for no reason whatsoever, and penalties for crimes are often so severe that many innocent people plead guilty to avoid mandatory sentences. Imagine for a moment that you are Emma Faye Stewart, a thirty-year-old, single African American mother of two who was arrested during a drug sweep in Hearne, Texas (Davis 50-52). All but one of the people arrested were black. You are innocent, but your court-appointed attorney urges you to plead guilty to a distribution charge because the prosecutor has offered probation. Initially, you refuse, proclaiming your innocence. But after a month in jail, you decide to plead guilty so that you can return to your family. As a branded drug felon, you are no longer eligible for food stamps, you cannot vote for at least twelve years (in Texas), you may be discriminated against in employment, and you are about to be evicted from public housing. Once homeless, your children will be taken from you and placed in foster care. A judge will eventually dismiss all cases against the defendants who did not plead guilty because at trial he discovers that the sweep was based on unreliable testimony. You, however, are still a drug felon, homeless and desperate to regain custody of your children. Works Cited Chirita, D. (2012). (Non) value in women’s magazines. Communication & Marketing / Revista De Comunicare Si Marketing, 3 (5), pp. 39-52. This is the War on Drugs. The story of Emma Faye Stewart is not an isolated incident, nor is her racial identity accidental. In every state, African Americans--particularly those in the poorest communities--are subjected to tactics and practices that would result in public outrage if they were conducted in middleclass white neighborhoods. We are told that the enemy in the War on Drugs is a thing--drugs--not a group of people, but the facts prove otherwise. Clarke, J. (2009). Women’s work, worry and fear: The portrayal of sexuality and sexual health in US magazines for teenage and middle-aged women, 2000-2007. Culture, Health & Sexuality, 11(4), 415-429. doi:10.1080/13691050902780776 2013, October. Cosmopolitan. Print. Occasions Home The Color of Justice: Culpability and Change in an Era of Punitiveness Hunt, P. D. 1. (2012). Editing desire, working girl wisdom, and cupcakeable goodness. Journalism History, 38(3), pp. 130-141. It appears that Cosmopolitan is essentially capturing the contradictory roles that women find themselves in today’s modern world. Women have far surpassed the idea that we are not hardworking and successful intellectuals. We can see factual evidence for this in the number of women in college. The ratios are higher than ever before, and, presently, the number of women studying in college outnumbers the number of men. We can also see a strong presence of women in the workforce as well as in politics. Be that as it may, women continue to not make as much money as men. This proves that there are still mountains of progress to be made before we see true equality. Women seem to be idle between a place of being the stereotypical mother and wife and a place of being the powerful and successful worker, and the breadwinner. Cosmopolitan seems to be reiterating this conflict that women are facing in society today. Perhaps my confusion around being a feminist who occasionally enjoys reading Cosmopolitan is not something that can simply be answered because it represents, and mirrors, a conflict that is taking place regarding the roles of the modern woman. Contents OCCASIONS PWR Home 12 The War: History’s Strange Fruit Although the undermining of federal civil rights legislation is generally considered to be the backlash against the Civil Rights Movement, a new system of racial control--mass incarceration-developed around the same time, and it has become the enduring sociopolitical legacy of Jim Crow. The shift to a general attitude of punitiveness toward structural problems associated with communities of color--poverty and unemployment--began in the 1960s, when the gains of the Civil Rights Movement required legitimate changes and sacrifices on the behalf of poor, workingclass whites. By vowing to “crack down on crime” and framing the welfare recipients as “undeserving,” conservative politicians successfully appealed to the racism and vulnerability of blue-collar whites who felt threatened by the sudden progress of African Americans. In October 1982, the Reagan administration officially announced the War on Drugs. Under Reagan, the budgets of federal law enforcement agencies increased dramatically to combat drug crime. FBI antidrug allocations increased from $8 million to $95 million between 1980 and 1984 (Beckett 53). However, at the time that Reagan declared the war, less than 2 percent of the American public viewed illegal drugs as the most important issue facing the nation (Alexander 49), and, according to the National Household Survey on Drug Abuse, drug use was actually in decline (Donziger 116). These facts did not deter Reagan because the drug war had little to do with public concern about drugs and more to do with public concerns about race. By waging a war on drug users and dealers, Regan fulfilled his anti-welfare promise to crack down on the undeserving--or racially defined “others.” In order to ensure that the Republican majority would support the expansion of the federal government’s law enforcement activities and that Congress would fund it, the Reagan administration launched a media offensive that sensationalized the emergence of crack cocaine in inner-city neighborhoods plagued by poverty and unemployment. Due to deindustrialization, legitimate employment opportunities in the inner-city declined, which increased incentives to sell drugs--notably, crack cocaine.1 “Crack” emerged in 1985, a few years after the drug war was announced, and resulted in a 1 Crack cocaine is pharmaceutically identical to powdered cocaine--except that crack has been converted to a form that can be inhaled for a faster high with less of the drug, making it possible to sell small doses at affordable prices. 13 OCCASIONS dramatic increase in violence as drug markets struggled to stabilize. Joblessness and crack hit inner-cities at the same time as the backlash against the Civil Rights Movement was manifesting itself in the War on Drugs. The Reagan administration seized the opportunity to publicize horror stories about crack in order to build support for its war. Thousands of stories about the “crack crisis” flooded the radio and newsstands, and they all had a clear racial subtext; the articles typically featured black “crack whores,” “gangbangers,” and “crack babies”--reinforcing already prevalent negative racial stereotypes about African Americans as part of a violent criminal subculture. In reality, the violence associated with crack stems more from the struggle for power, territory, and market control among drug dealers than from the narcotic effect of crack itself (Weaver 235). Nevertheless, the media frenzy resulted in the passage of the Anti-Drug Abuse Act of 1986, which introduced harsh minimum sentences for the distribution of cocaine. Under federal law, possession of five grams of crack--which is associated with blacks--mandated a minimum of five years, while the possession of same amount of powder cocaine--which is associated with whites-remained a misdemeanor, punishable by a maximum of one year (Donziger 119). These laws ensured that African Americans would be sent to prison in unprecedented numbers and kept there for longer sentences. In Malign Neglect, his study on the War on Drugs and its impact on minorities, criminologist Michael Tonry writes, “African Americans have borne the brunt of the War on Drugs. They have been arrested, prosecuted, convicted, and imprisoned at increasing rates since the early 1980s, and grossly out of proportion to their numbers in the general population or among drug users” (134). By the 1990s, “tough on crime” policies were universally adopted across the political spectrum. Once elected, Bill Clinton signed the Violent Crime Control and Law Enforcement Act of 1994, the largest crime bill in history. The $30-billion bill significantly expanded the federal death penalty, mandated life sentences for three-time offenders, and authorized more than $9.7 billion in funding for state prisons and $6.1 billion in the expansion of local and state police forces. In addition to his crime bill, Clinton signed the Personal Responsibility and Work Opportunity Reconciliation Act in 1996, which instituted Temporary Assistance to Needy Families (TNAF). TNAF imposes a five-year lifetime limit on welfare assistance and a permanent ban on eligibility for welfare and food stamps of anyone convicted of a drug felony--including the The Facts Nation-wide, the rate of incarceration for African American drug offenders outstrips the rate of whites. There are more black men imprisoned today than at any other moment in our nation’s history (Alexander 175). In 2000, the Human Rights Watch reported that African Americans constitute 80 to 90 percent of all drug offenders sent to prison. Even though the number of whites admitted for drug offenses has also increased, their relative numbers pale in comparison to blacks’ and Latinos’. In at least fifteen states, blacks are admitted to prison on drug charges at a rate of twenty to fifty-seven times greater than of white men (Maurer 96). The majority of illegal drug users and dealers, however, are white. Surveys frequently suggest that whites, particularly white youth, are more likely to participate in illegal drug dealing than people of color. One study reported that white students use crack cocaine at eight times the rate of black students and use heroin at seven times the rate of black students (National Institute on Drug Abuse 2000). The National Household Survey on Drug Abuse reported that white youth aged 12-17 are more than a third more likely to have sold illegal drugs than African American youth (U.S. Department of Health 2000). Any notion that drug use among blacks is more common or dangerous is refuted by the data. Thus, the same year that the Human Rights Watch was reporting that African Americans were being imprisoned at unprecedented rates, government data revealed that blacks were no more likely to be guilty of drug crimes that whites and that white youth were actually the most likely of any ethnic group to be guilty of illegal drug possession and sales. Nevertheless, 1 in every 9 black men between the ages of twenty and thirty-five was behind bars in 2006--compared with 1 in 106 white men--and far more were under some form of penal control, such as probation or parole (Alexander 98). How does society explain these shocking racial disparities in our criminal justice system if it cannot be explained by the rates of illegal drug activity among African Americans? Politicians and law enforcement officials today rarely endorse racially biased practices--in fact, many of them fiercely condemn racial discrimination of any kind. Forms of race discrimination that had been notorious for centuries were abandoned in the 1960s and 1970s during the Civil Rights Movement and transformed into something inherently un-American. The vast majority of whites supported anti-discriminatory policy by the Despite the colorblind rhetoric of recent years, the design of the War on Drugs effectively guarantees that those swept into the criminal justice system are predominately black and brown. African Americans are not significantly more likely to use or sell illegal drugs than whites, but they are made criminals at extraordinarily higher rates for the same conduct. possession of marijuana. Not unlike Jim Crow, these policies effectively legalize discrimination against convicts--a disproportionate number of which are racial and ethnic minorities due to the War on Drugs--in housing, welfare benefits, employment, and access to education. OCCASIONS This considerably changed racial climate has led the defenders of mass incarceration to insist that our criminal justice system--despite its long history of racial discrimination--is now largely fair and non-discriminatory. Instead, they point to violent crime rates as justification for the disproportionate rates of incarceration: black men have much higher rates of violent crime-that’s why so many of them are in prison. However, the problem with this abbreviated analysis is that violent crime is not responsible for the prison boom. Violent crime rates fluctuate over the years and bear little relationship to incarceration rates. Today, violent crime rates are at historically low levels while incarceration rates continue to increase (Mauer 99). How It Really Works think of racism, we think of water hoses, lynchings, and “whites only” signs. Our understanding of racism is therefore defined by the most extreme expressions of individual bigotry--not by the way in which racism functions naturally when it is imbedded in the structure of a social system. The idea of structural racism is explained by Marilyn Frye’s birdcage metaphor: if one thinks about racism and oppression by examining only one wire of the birdcage-one form of disadvantage--it is difficult to understand how the bird is trapped; only by examining the cage as a whole--how multiple wires are arranged and connected to trap the bird and ensure that it cannot escape--can we understand the concept of structural racism. The reality is that race, poverty, crime, and education are interdependent variables. Despite the colorblind rhetoric of recent years, the design of the War on Drugs effectively guarantees that those swept into the criminal justice system are predominately black and brown. African Americans are not significantly more likely to use or sell illegal drugs than whites, but they are made criminals at extraordinarily higher rates for the same conduct. Drug law enforcement is unlike other types of law enforcement. When a violent crime, a robbery, or trespassing occurs, someone usually calls the police. There is a clear victim and perpetrator; someone is harmed or violated in some way and wants the offender to be punished. In the case of drug crime, however, neither the buyer nor the seller has any incentive to contact law enforcement; it is a consensual activity. Moreover, 1 in 10 Americans violate drug laws annually (Alexander 101). The consensual nature and pervasiveness of illegal drug activity requires a more proactive approach by law enforcement than what is required to address regular street crime. Nevertheless, it is impossible for the police to identify and arrest every drug criminal. Hence, strategic choices must be made about whom to target and which tactics to employ. A 1995 survey asked the question: “Would you close your eyes for a second, envision a drug user, and describe that person to me?” The disconcerting results published in the Journal of Alcohol and Drug Education showed that 95 percent of respondents pictured a black drug user. Almost no one taking the survey pictured a white person. These results contrasted sharply with the reality of drug crime in America: African Americans constituted only 15 percent of current drug users in 1995 (103). There is no reason to believe that the 1995 survey results would have been any different if police officers or prosecutors had been the respondents instead of the general public. Both have been exposed to the same racially charged political rhetoric and media imagery associated with the drug war as we have. In fact, studies show that people, including law enforcement officers and jurors, become increasingly punitive when an alleged criminal is darker and more “stereotypically black” and are more lenient when the accused is light-skinned and appears more stereotypically white (43). On every measure of social disadvantage, the rates for African Americans dwarf the rates for whites--notably, figures for out-of-wedlock births, single-parent households, and poverty, which are more than twice the rates for whites (Russell-Brown 57). In 1992, 46 percent of African American children were born into poverty compared with 16 percent of white children (Mauer 105). Because mass incarceration is highly concentrated among the most disadvantaged in the labor market--poor minority men with little education--the effects of the penal system on this community are devastating. Ending a Costly Enterprise early 1980s--which reflects a profound shift in racial attitudes--and the margin of support for colorblind norms and legislation has only increased since then. 14 Of all the reasons that we fail to know the truth about mass incarceration, one stands out: a profound misunderstanding of how racial oppression actually works. As a society, our collective understanding of racism has been shaped by the shocking images of the Jim Crow Era and the struggle for civil rights. When we Collectively, our decision to blame those who struggle and fail in a system designed to keep them marginalized says more about us than it does about them. If we had learned to show genuine compassion and concern across racial lines during the Civil Rights Movement--rather than adopt colorblindness--mass incarceration would not exist today. The result of our social and criminal justice polices is that, among developed countries, the United States has the highest rates of incarceration, the widest spread income inequality, and the highest levels of poverty (Donziger 29). If we are serious about reducing crime, we need to treat substance abuse as a public health challenge--rather than a criminal justice problem--and fund effective anti-poverty programs as a part of an overall approach to crime policy. In order to reduce crime, we must first commit to reducing poverty by investing in youths, families, and communities. We need to address the effect that the War on Drugs has had on poor minority communities. The Eisenhower Foundation, which works to develop declining urban neighborhoods, has estimated that it will cost $30 billion per year over a decade to revitalize urban areas across the nation (Donziger 217). The federal Job Crops program helps at-risk youth overcome barriers to employment, and studies show that every dollar invested in Job Corps returned $1.46 to society though reductions in costs of incarceration and taxes paid by former Job Corps members (Weaver 140). According to a report by the National Criminal Justice Commission, replacing the War on Drugs with a policy of harm reduction will effectively stem substance abuse and incarceration costs. Although over $100 billion has been spent waging the drug war, illegal drug use continues at the same levels, and drugs available on the streets have not declined in their level of potency. The purpose of harm reduction is to minimize the effects of drugs rather than waging a war against drug users. It also recognizes the fact that the drug trade is mostly 15 OCCASIONS driven by demand created by addicts--many of whom commit crimes in order to support their addictions. A statewide study in California found that, for every dollar spent on substance abuse treatment, taxpayers saved seven dollars in lowered crime and health care costs. Likewise, in the District of Columbia, the cost of drug treatment is one-tenth the cost of incarceration, and inmates who are treated before release have less than half the recidivism rate of untreated inmates (Donziger 202). In the private sector, the nonprofit Phoenix House runs residential and outpatient programs in New York and California, averaging about $52.20 per day. Notable, more than 93 percent of those who have been treated in the Phoenix House program have not committed a new offense in five years (Alexander 143). Weaver, Vesla M. “Unhappy Harmony: Accounting for Black Mass Incarceration in a Postracial America.” Beyond Discrimination: Racial Inequality in a Postracist Era. Ed. Fredrick C. Harris and Robert C. Lieberman. New York: Russell-Sage Foundation, 2013. 215-56. Print. By Zoe Pasternack “You could look at nature as being like a catalogue of products, and all of those have benefited from a 3.8 billion year research and development period. And given that level of investment, it kind of makes sense to use it.” -Michael Pawlyn T his use of natural forms and processes to create new inventions for human use is called biomimicry (or biomimetics). Scientists have been observing nature for millennia, but this new term has turned into an entire field of study. By taking complex and efficient natural processes and studying them closely, inventors have created many new things that have revolutionized the way that we live. From fighter jets to Velcro, and many inventions in between, biomimicry has contributed to many objects that are used daily by people around the planet! Works Cited Alexander, Michelle. The New Jim Crow, Mass Incarceration in an Era of Colorblindness. New York: Oxford UP, 2010. Print. Using biomimicry is more beneficial than creating products through trial-and-error. There are many physical processes and technical mechanics that we, as humans, may not be able to create out of thin air. This is not to trivialize the many ingenious human discoveries and inventions over the millennia. In this day and age, humanity faces many new problems such as the challenges of feeding the immense population and the overuse of limited resources. Biomimicry has created many products for discovery and entertainment, but, more importantly, we can use it to improve many peoples’ lives. Biomimicry can even change the direction of the human race’s development. Beckett, Katherine. Making Crime Pay, Law and Order in Contemporary American Politics. New York: Oxford UP, 1997. Print. Davis, Angela. Arbitrary Justice: The Power of the American prosecutor. New York: Oxford UP, 2007. Print. Donziger, Steven R. The Real War on Crime: the Report on the National Criminal Justice Commission. New York: Harper Collins, 1996. Print. Human Rights Watch. Punishment and Prejudice: Racial Disparities in the War on Drugs, HRW Reports, 12. 2 May 2000. Print. The history of biomimicry is important in understanding the field. One of the first applications of biomimicry was in flight. “Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return.” This famous quotation, often attributed to Leonardo da Vinci, illustrates mankind’s long fascination with flight. This intense fascination led many people to study the mechanics of flight as well as the motivation behind it. Civilizations as far back as ancient Greece cite stories of flight. The ancient Greek myth of Icarus illustrates the Greek’s fascination with flight from a time long before it was technologically feasible. The myth goes that Daedalus, the father of Icarus, built wings made of feathers and wax for Icarus to use in his escape from Crete to the mainland of Greece. Icarus was told to stay low enough that the sun would not melt the wax on his wings. The wings did provide flight for Icarus, but curiosity got the best of him when he flew too high and crashed into the sea. Although his flight was unsuccessful, Icarus has become a symbol for “high-flying ambition” (“Icarus”). Mauer, Marc. The Race of Incarcerate, the Sentencing Project. New York: New York Press, 2010. Print. National Institute on Drug Abuse. Monitoring the Future, National Survey Results on Drug Use, 1975-1999. Washington, DC: National Institute of Drug Abuse. Print. Tonry, Michael. Malign Neglect: Race Crime, and Punishment in America. New York: Oxford UP, 1995. Print. U.S. Department of Health. National Household Survey of Drug Abuse 2000. Washington, DC: Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration. 71. Print. Occasions Home A New Kind of “Natural” Design The War on Drugs has given birth to a system of mass incarceration that governs entire communities of color. Various criminal and civil sanctions are used to control and oppress the racially defined “other,” which have enormous effects on both individuals and communities as a whole. Only by addressing the extraordinary social and economic impacts of the War on Drugs and recognizing its racial dimension can we begin to shift our crime policy from an agenda of “war” to one of peace. Contents OCCASIONS PWR Home 16 Flight has been a very important development in human history. It has benefited many aspects of life, including transportation of goods and speeding the rate of travel in the modern world. Flight has also, surprisingly, influenced psychology and the understanding of the human mind. Scholars such as Sigmund Freud and his colleagues Paul Federn and Ernest Jones link dreams of flying to other aspects of life (Scherr). Freud linked flight to sexuality and repression. Federn’s theories linked flying to a broader range of activities and aspirations. Federn notes that “In flying the dreamer feels that he/she has ‘rediscovered a long lost ability” (126). Whether we are awake or dreaming, flight has been a preoccupation of humanity for millennia and even expanded our understanding of the inner workings of the human mind. For centuries, humankind has struggled with the question of how to achieve flight while avoiding the plight of Icarus. Many late-19th-century inventors, one of which was Otto Lilienthal, made leaps and bounds in the direction of sustained flight. By mimicking the form of birds and even flying squirrels, inventors and engineers have been able to create flying devices to aid human flight. Lilienthal understood this principle of biomimetics long before it was a field of study. Lilienthal was inspired by cranes to invent his gliding device. He studied the bone structure of crane’s wings as well as the role the pattern of their feathers played in keeping them aloft. Lilienthal flew many test runs in his gliding machine and achieved gliding distances of up to 820 ft., which were never exceeded by anyone in his lifetime (“Otto Lilienthal”). Lilienthal also designed versions of biplanes. The most well-known inventors in the search for sustained flight in the last century were the Wright brothers. They were the first people on record to achieve sustained motorized flight. Their achievement is well-know and a great feat of engineering. The Wright brother’s invention was inspired by the work of Lilienthal and his contemporaries and has let to the planes and spaceships of today. Figure. 1. Lilienthal’s gliding device (left) was inspired by the form of a stork (right). 17 OCCASIONS The wingsuit is the modern-day answer to this age-old search for flight. A Frenchman named Patrick DeGayardon invented the modern wingsuit in the mid-1990s. Since its invention, it has been modified and improved on, becoming one of the modern-day answers to humanity’s search for flight. Wingsuits and gliding devices have been made of a wide range of materials, from canvas and whalebones to silk and carbon fiber. Modern wingsuits have minimal rigid support so that they remain maneuverable. The force of the wind inflates the areas of the wings (two wings between the body and arms and one wing connecting the legs) and gives the wings enough stability that people flying in wingsuits do not have to worry about keeping the wings extended by sheer force against the wind. Flying squirrels, known scientifically as “pteromyimi,” are a family of mammals that can extend their limbs to achieve flight by gliding between trees. Technically, flying squirrels don’t “fly,” but they have been recorded to glide up to 295 feet (“Flying Squirrel”). Fig. 2. Wingsuits (left) were inspired by the form of flying squirrls (right). Wingsuits actually have a very similar structure to the biological structure of this mammal. The flying squirrel was a large factor in inspiring the wingsuit, which are sometimes even called “squirrel suits.” Tonysuits Wingsuits Company is run by Tony Uragallo. Tonysuits is one of the leading wingsuit manufacturing companies in the United States. Uragallo worked with Patrick deGayardon when he was designing the first wingsuits. By working with deGayardon, Uragallo has become one of the premier winsuit manufacturers in America. Tonysuits have been used by many of the top wingsuit flyers to win international competitions and advance the sport as well as to pursue flight in general. One wingsuit flyer describes the device as an extension of his body. “When I zip my wingsuit around my body, it becomes part of me. The suit allows me to leap out of a plane or off a cliff, simply spread my wings and then glide like a bird” (Pemberton). This achievement is what humanity has been in search of since the beginning of recorded history. There are new developments in biomimicry that will contribute directly to flight as well. Mercedes-Benz is working with the aerodynamic shape of the boxfish to create a car that works more efficiently with the air passing around it and requires less fuel to run because it has less resistance (“15 Coolest Cases”). By applying this principle of aerodynamics to planes and space shuttles, inventors might also improve flight. Scientists from Penn State University have come up with a new development in wing shape (“15 Coolest Cases”). They were inspired by species of fish and birds. Different birds’ wings are built for different speeds and amounts of flying time. By making an airplane wing that can change shape in the air, scientists have made faster flight possible while also using fuel more efficiently. Given the study of the surface of birds’ wings in more depth, the coating of flying devices could be outfitted to be more aerodynamic. From applications of transportation (overseas flights and creating the ability to quickly move products around the world), to exploration (from wingsuit flying to outer space missions), flight has changed the human experience drastically within the last century. There are many different applications of biomimicry that can be applied to human designs. We are entering an age in which biomimicry has moved beyond the study of flight to combat complex human problems. While flight is an integral part of daily life in the 21st Century, we now face complex environmental problems that biomimicry can aid in solving. From making daily life easier in developed countries to the more serious task of feeding an overpopulated world, biomimicry is creating the technology to achieve a wide range of solutions. In a study of 50 students at the University of Colorado/Boulder, 68% believed that more money should be spent on new technologies at the university itself, and 84% believed that their lives would see direct benefits from a larger investment in biomimetic technology (Pasternack). Scientists have studied shark’s skin to create material that repels bacteria based on the structure of the surface (“15 Coolest Cases”). This material has been used in hospitals so that there is less need for using harsh chemicals, which is beneficial to society because the use of harsh chemicals can cause antibiotic resistant bacteria. Antibiotic resistance is a huge problem. Once humans are affected by antibiotic resistant bacteria, it can be very hard to treat the ailments these bacteria cause. An example of this is the MRSA infection, which is relatively common in hospitals these days. By using this coating in hospitals and public places that would usually accumulate a lot of bacteria, we could dramatically cut down the number of people who infected. The coating makes it impossible for bacteria to adhere to surfaces, for with no surface to attach to, bacteria cannot survive. This has a wide range of applications and could dramatically improve human health, including the suppression of infectious bacteria! OCCASIONS By studying giant lotus plants, inventors have come up with a coating that beads water and picks up dirt and other materials on the surface and washes them away. In effect, this has created a coating that is self-cleaning. It could have many applications, from self-cleaning windshields on cars to skyscraper windows that never need to be washed (“15 Coolest Cases”). Cutting down on the use of harsh chemicals used to clean cars would make runoff of these chemicals into waterways almost obsolete. The dangers posed to cleaners of skyscrapers and other large, hard-to-clean areas would also be eliminated. Biomimicry is also an emerging field in the build environment. By studying animal’s habitats and other natural processes, architects have been able to create more efficient buildings. Mick Pearce’s Eastgate Building in Harare, Zimbabwe, mimics the structure of a termite mound, which is very efficient in temperature regulation as well as ventilation. Temperature in the building is controlled by the use of small moving flaps that open and close according to the need for cool or warm air. This application of a passive cooling system can dramatically cut down the energy required to keep a building at a comfortable temperature (Pedersen Zari). This reduces the electricity and even gas that buildings consume and could greatly cut down on greenhouse gas emissions. Another application of biomimicry in architecture is the Eden Project. The Eden Project is a greenhouse built on top of a mining site in the UK. Soap bubbles were studied to come up with a design that was flexible enough to deal with the changing ground levels, and carbon molecules were studied to come up with a support structure that was strong enough to span the immense diameter of the buildings (Pawlyn). Organisms’ pressurized membranes were studied to come up with a material that could replace glass because glass was too heavy. The designers used three layers of clear material and welded around the edges and inflated the interior to create a man-made pressurized membrane. Their design was so efficient that the weight of the building ended up weighing less than the weight of the air inside the building! Inside the buildings of the Eden Project, the world’s biomes have been recreated to preserve species from each biome. It is important to preserve these species and prevent plant species extinction. By using biomimetics, we have created viable structures in which to easily house these biomes long term. Transportation has also been improved through biomimicry. When designing a bullet train, the West Japan Railway Company had trouble with the performance of their train during testing. The air pressure inside and outside tunnels is different, and this resulted in a loud booming noise every time the bullet trains exited the tunnels. To combat this, designers looked to the kingfisher. This bird’s beak is designed to make the dive from the air into the water seamless. The kingfisher doesn’t make a single splash as it enters the water. The West Japan Railway Company redesigned the front of the trains to mimic the kingfisher’s beak. This aerodynamic design made it possible for the train to exit the tunnel without a loud noise. This is beneficial in large cities because noise pollution has been shown to have many detrimental effects. Loud noises can cause shocked drivers to veer off of roadways and cause accidents. Noise pollution has also been shown to cause mental agitation and, with prolonged exposure, more serious mental health problems as well. The Nambian Beetle (Stenocara gracilipes), which is a native of the southwest coast of Africa, has been studied and has benefited the field of water harvesting. The Nambian Beetle has bumps patterned to attract water from the air (fog) and condense it into water on the microscopic bumps of its shell. This process has been used to create greenhouses that can function in areas with low precipitation. The “windows” of the greenhouses are angled to capture water from the air and funnel it to nourish the plants inside the greenhouse. This design has been used in the Sahara Forest Project, which utilizes it along the southern border of the Sahara desert, where desertification is rampant. These greenhouses actually produce more than enough water for the plants inside them and have been shown to raise the humidity of the air around them enough to reverse desertification. Desertification is caused by our changing environment and is a danger to human progress because it prevents food production in soil that has suffered desertification. In conclusion, the search for flight has led to many achievements. What started out as humanity’s obsession with floating above the earth has led to many inventions that achieve just that feat. It has also led to the application of other natural patterns to achieve products that will benefit society. The field of biomimetics will improve many lives, whether it be through products used for recreation or live-saving technology. Works Cited “15 Coolest Cases of Biomimicry.” Brainz. N.p. Web. 15 Nov. 2013. Federn, Paul. “On Dreams of Flying.” Ed. H. M. Ruitenbeek. Heirs to Freud: Essays in Freudian Psychology. New York: Grove, 1966. Print. “Icarus.” Wikipedia. Wikimedia Foundation, 10 Nov. 2013. Web. 16 Nov. 2013. “Otto Lilienthal.” Wikipedia. Wikimedia Foundation, 9 Nov. 2013. Web. 16 Nov. 2013. Fig. 3. Bacteria (left) can be combated with bacteria resistant shark like coating (right). 18 Fig. 4. The form of the Eden Project (left) was inspired by studying soap bubbles (right). Pasternack, Zoe. Survey of University of Colorado students. 5 Dec. 2013. 19 OCCASIONS OCCASIONS Pawlyn, Michael. “Using Nature’s Genius in Architecture.” Ted. Ted Talks, Nov. 2010. Web. 15 Nov. 2013 Pemberton, Rex. “Passions Combined--Wingsuit from the North Wall of the Eiger.” AllThingsAero. All Things Aero Media LLC, n.d. Web. 12 Nov. 2013. Of Dragons and Tips By Travis Cobb Pedersen Zari, Maibritt. “Biomimetic Approaches to Architectural Design for Increased Sustainability.” New Zealand Sustainable Building Project. SB07 New Zealand. Web. 16 Nov. 2013. F riday afternoon in the middle of fall semester, I rushed to find my truck. I spent every penny I had earned over two summers to buy it the moment I turned sixteen. It was a beautiful fall day in Arkansas, and I couldn’t wait to drive with the music blaring, down every back road I could find. Last warm weekend with the guys. Damn, have to wait a minute longer. My buddy Nathan, fifteen feet ahead, dropped his high stack of books all over the ground. Scherr, Arthur. “Sigmund Freud, Leonardo da Vinci, and Fear of Flying.” Midwestern Quarterly. 42.2 (2001): 115-32. Web. 15 Nov. 2013. Nathan was the leader of a great little church club on campus. Unlike the other church clubs, his never ran an outreach in an effort to “evangelize the lost.” However, you could find him and his group regularly mowing the elderly’s lawns, or feeding the homeless, or even cleaning up a neighborhood simply because it was the right thing to do. He epitomized what every good-natured young man wanted to be, and did it with confidence. I ran to help him pick up his books as a sudden chilly fall wind blew through the parking lot. I picked up the books and handed them back. He wouldn’t look me in the eye. “How you doing, man?” I asked quickly. His eyes dropped: “I’m fine.” He glanced up at me, and for the first time since I had known him, I saw an unsure gaze. His eyes bounced away, his shoulders slumped but still tense, pulling his books closer and tighter to his chest in turning to walk away. This surely couldn’t be the Nathan I remembered from even two days before when we met to set up another trip to the homeless shelter. Something welled up in me, and I started to ask if he wanted to join the guys and me for the weekend, when I thought better of it. This is the kid who has it going on. He is smart, goodlooking, confident, and universally known and admired. What did I really have to offer him? Why would he even want to join a ragtag group of guys swimming, grilling out, shooting off fireworks, and playing video games and trying not to let our swears slip out in front of my parents? Okay, it sounds pretty good, but he obviously has his own plans for the weekend, and he doesn’t need me making him feel bad for saying no. I told him to have a good weekend, and he turned, looked me straight in the eye, and simply nodded. I walked away with a tightening knot in my stomach. Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 20 The weekend was a blast, and everyone stuck around until Sunday night. As Sunday wore on, the guys and some of the girls crashed in random spots for an afternoon nap. My parents woke us all up by turning on the evening news. “The young man that went missing Friday night in Cabot, Arkansas, is still missing! More after this short break. . . .” We all munched on snacks and prepped the table for board games. Then, commercial music fades away. “A young man from Cabot High School went missing Friday night. . . .” Everyone found a patch of carpet. “His parents, who were working at their local church for a fundraiser, first noticed him missing when they returned home. Unfortunately, due to his age, we are unable to release his name. After waiting for two hours, they called the police to assist in the search. . . .” Chris, my closest friend from down the street, pulled out his phone. After a moment of listening he hung up. “Guys, it’s Nathan! The kid that’s missing is Nathan.” “By late morning, his parents became increasingly concerned when his dog showed up at the house. The boy and his dog were inseparable. . . .” We couldn’t turn our eyes away. My dad changed the channel on the commercials, and everyone in the room yelled at him to change it back. We sat there and waited for some word that Nathan was okay to come through the speakers. Thirty minutes later we knew nothing more. We started the board games and kept the TV on low. At about 8 pm, the news posted a special report. Three cell phones started ringing almost at once. Tarvin answered first. “They found him!” “The boy was found about three miles from his house in the middle of the woods. . . .” Justin smiled as he hung up his phone. “Guys, remember that place Nathan loved to hike to? That’s where he was.” . . .” “He was sitting in his favorite glen on the east side of a hill. 21 OCCASIONS Greg held his phone to one ear and covered the other with his left hand. Slowly, his arms dropped to his lap. His hands hit his knees and his phone hit the floor at the same time. “He’s dead. He shot himself.” “He had shot himself. . . .” When do we start concerning ourselves with other’s affairs? When does it become just as important to make sure those around you are acting correctly as it is to make sure you are? I distinctly remember when it started for me. I was four years old and playing at my best friend Sally’s house. I had my GI Joe, and Sally had her Superman figure. We were playing with a couple of girls from down the street. They were having a tea party that needed saving from the Joker and a dragon when Sally’s brother Brian came out of the house. Brian was four years older than us and quite large for his age. He regularly threw his weight around to get his way and even more often to push people around for the fun of it. When it rained in our neighborhood, the water always pooled up at the bottom of the hill on top of this manhole. It had just rained the night before, and there was still a puddle over the manhole. Brian came down to the sidewalk and grabbed the girls’ dolls from the tea party and threw them in the puddle one by one. After the second doll was thrown in and the girls were yelling at Brian or crying, I found myself standing on my feet with my fists clenched. I stepped forward as Brian grabbed the third doll from its chair and yelled, “Why do you have to be such a BITCH!?!” I had no idea what I had just said, only that it must have been tremendous from the look on everyone’s face. After a moment, I realized that their looks were not of pride but of horror. I had just crossed a line that we all knew was there, but we did not know why. Brian looked at me with his mouth open, and I knew what was coming next. He started marching towards my house and stated loud and proud, “I’m telling!” I tried to step in front of him to stop him. After trying and failing at this a couple times, I simply latched onto his leg as we entered my front yard. I pleaded and begged for him not to tell my parents, but he simply kept dragging me across the lawn to the front door. As we got close, my mom came out and asked what was going on. Brian told her what I had called him, and she looked down at me holding onto his leg and shaking my head furiously. She simply gave me that mom look that makes a boy sit up straight and close his mouth while he is chewing and said, “Don’t you lie to me, boy!” Those words were death to any lie. It’s not a question or even an openness to the truth; it is a warning! It says all in one, I know you are lying AND you better consider where it’s going to take you if you continue. The only correct response is what I chose: turn your eyes to the ground and don’t look her in the face; she has just become Medusa and she will turn you to stone if you don’t heed the warning. Why did I do it? What land of crazy did I enter where I thought calling him a bitch was a good idea? Something came over me, and I cared, where I formerly didn’t, or at least not enough to do anything about it myself. A couple weeks later, I walked outside to play after lunch and Sally was sitting on the curb rubbing her eyes. Of course I asked her what was wrong, and when she said a girl she was good friends with told her she wasn’t any fun and didn’t want to play with her, I had to help out. She was sad, and I had to do what I could to make her happy. I promptly marched down the street to the girl’s house, and knocked on the door. When she answered, I told her that she was really mean and that Sally was crying from what she had said. I finished with saying that she should apologize, and if she wouldn’t, then no one should play with her. The next day, she and Sally were playing dolls on the girl’s front lawn. *** When I started into kindergarten a year and a half later, life got rough for a bit. Within the first couple of weeks, I was involved in three fights. One fight, a week into the school year, started after I retrieved a buddy’s hat from some bullies who were teasing him with it. After I sent him off with his hat, the ring-leader grabbed my hat and asked me what I was going to do now. Without a moment’s consideration, I punched him squarely in his nose and as he started wailing, I picked up my hat from where it dropped. Fighting for my friends continued unchecked and regularly got me in trouble until I was ten years old. This was the year when I stood up for a close girlfriend when a boy called her a whore. When I started saying something to the boy, my friend told me to stay out of it. I stepped back appalled, wondering what I had done wrong. Then it hit me: maybe people didn’t want me to make them feel better. Maybe they just wanted to ignore the things that made them sad or angry or frustrated. A few weeks later, while out on the field for Little League, the oldest boy on our team started pushing the smallest kid because he missed a pop-fly in the middle of a big game. I started to tell him to stop when the bully turned on me and the little guy glared at me--no pleaded with me--to do nothing. “No more!” I said to myself. Months later I watched as the same boys threw slushies at the kid. I climbed on my bike and rode home without much thought. OCCASIONS He told me no at first, and I tossed out the cliche, “Come on! You know you want to.” He fell for it, and we watched twenty minutes that changed both our lives. Over the next week, Ben started spending every minute alone. No more sleepovers and no more jumping on the trampoline all afternoon. Within two weeks, we weren’t hanging out at all. A couple months into the next school year, sixth grade, I was standing behind Ben in the lunch line as he asked one of the girls to do very inappropriate things to him. A week later, I heard that he was in trouble for possible verbal sexual assault. Man, the kid had changed. Where was the fun-loving goof ? He used to make me feel better, and then he just made me feel dirty. He’d taken it too far and had no excuse. But I was my own person, and he was his. *** “Hey, Pampers! Why don’t you stop stinking up the bus and change your diaper?” the boy yelled from the back row. Gus Pamp, a boy from down the street, turned with red cheeks and a running nose and shouted, “Shut the hell up!” My hands curled into fists and tensed up with frustration over the situation. I sat there quietly and watched as Gus ran down the stairs and the driver slowly opened and closed the door. She moved on down the street without saying a word. How could she? Didn’t she see that Gus was desperate? The kid at the back of the bus certainly deserved some sort of punishm. . . . It was none of my business. *** Ducky looked up from his notebook as Curtis yelled to him, “Hey, Ducky! Want to join our club?” Ducky looked at the group of larger boys standing in a circle and asked, “Really?” In a mocking tone, Curtis said, “Really. All you have to do is pass our little initiation. Do you think you can handle that?” *** 22 “Oops! You looked.” Curtis chuckled. “What are you talking abo. . . .” Ducky bent over and groaned in pain. Curtis reared back to take out Ducky’s other shin with his beefy Doc Martens. Just then every other boy in the circle started kicking Ducky as hard as they could. Ducky crumpled to the ground. My heart jumped as it did with Gus, but this time I couldn’t stand idly by. They were breaking their own rule by kicking Ducky in the head and stomach. Before any of them could swing back for another go at him, I jumped in and shoved Ducky out the side of the circle. The group kicked me two or three times before they realized who I was. All but Curtis suddenly backed away, leery of what I would do. Curtis stepped forward, “What the hell do you think you’re doing?” I gritted my teeth from the few kicks that landed and pulled my shoulders back. “Oh, I see, you want a turn too.” He reared back to kick me, but before he had the chance I pinned him. My forearm on his throat, and his back against a column. A quick sucking in of air sounded all around me. He pulled his arm back to punch me, and I ever so slightly increased the pressure on his throat. Curtis quickly relaxed, but he retained a strained red face. “You’ll regret this,” he proclaimed so everyone could hear him and sauntered off with his crew in tow. Ducky and I never found out why we should have regretted that moment. Ducky’s face after that moment, the face of gratitude and acceptance, the wide watery eyes, trembling lips, and hands facing to the sky. An expression of pursed lips, upward curled mouth, and shrugging shoulders, of happy confusion. I had no idea that I could give people the gift of feeling welcome. I brought him in to a group I didn’t even know about, mine. *** Later that year, a short stocky scrapper from the skater group started pushing me from behind as I left the lunch room. He was about half my size, so I simply kept walking as he grabbed onto my backpack in an effort to get me to fight. He started yelling taunts like, “Hey, big guy, you scared of a little guy, like me? Come on, man, don’t be a pussy!” My feet kept moving. “Wha . . . what do I have to do?” Ducky asked. “Just come play a game of hackie-sack with us,” Curtis said with a smirk. The night dragged on after watching two movies already, and Ben didn’t want to go to bed. He ran his fingers through his shiny black mop as he flipped through ten more channels. Sleepovers with Ben had become the summer ritual multiple times a week. He landed on HBO at 3 am. Yeah, that time of the night. He skipped past it quickly and then looked at me with an ashamed look. I knew we shouldn’t watch it, but I told him to go back. The guys at my middle school had come up with a stupid game that year. They would hold two fingers in a circle and place it somewhere on their bodies below the waist. If you looked at the circle they were allowed to hit you as hard as they wanted to anywhere except the face or the stomach. Curtis, in his cruelty, took it further. Ducky, of course, looked at the fingers Curtis was holding in a circle on his right leg. Suddenly my buddy next to me was almost pulled off his feet. I turned and wrenched my friend’s backpack from the little punk’s hands. My friend stood staring until I told him to head to class. As I turned back to keep an eye on the scrapper, he punched me across the cheek. I simply stood my ground as my eyes started watering. I gave this runt of a jackass my steadiest poker face. The crowd that gathered let out an “Oooohhhh!” The scrapper took a step back as a teacher walked up. Everyone was still shouting “Fight!” over and over, though I didn’t notice it before. The teacher told us both to go straight to the principal. 23 OCCASIONS The principal towered above me, even from his chair behind the desk. His voice seemed to shake the very room we were in. “What happened?” “Well, sir, I didn’t want to start a fight, but I wasn’t going to let him hurt somebody.” “I understand, son. This boy is real trouble and he just found someone he couldn’t push around. You did nothing wrong. Go ahead to class.” Oddly, I wondered what was in the future for this kid. “What’s going to happen to him?” just sorta popped out. The principal looked at me with eyebrows raised, “He’ll probably get expelled.” “Wait, why? It was just one incident, I didn’t mean to get him expelled.” Same raised eyebrows, “Well . . . this kid has a history, son. Nothing you did changed where this was leading. Now, go-on and head to class.” I head back to class slowly. Really!?! This guy is an ass. He gets off on pushing kids around, terrorizing people. . . . But there was something different from Curtis, a longing for connection, not control. The moment I passed him before he started pushing me, where were his eyes? Focused elsewhere, a group, the clan of skater-kids that were always in the driveway during lunch. He was just trying to fit in. . . . Was he someone else’s Ducky? . . . .This was just his initiation. *** My dad shuts off the TV, and his voice seems to echo from some distant place: “Did any of you guys know him well?” . . . .Back to reality. Ahhh, Nathan, right. Many of my friends nod their heads and sit quietly for a bit. As the guys slowly thin out, most leave with their eyes to the ground. I see Nathan’s face, a tower of books in his hands, that quiet reserved look in his eye. He seems motionless, and yet I’m moving and talking at unthinkable speeds. Over and over again, sentence after sentence I could have said to him comes spilling out. “Want to come? Want togo!?! Wanttosee!!?! Want!to!join!!?!!” Blahblah-blah. Every possible choice that could have saved him. the Air Force base, asks me curtly what I need. I quietly tell him that I need him. He looks at me with a sudden change. His eyes caring and soft now. He comes close and asks, “What’s going on, buddy?” I hug him fiercely, wetting his shoulder and his neck as the last two years spill out of me. My story finishes with, “What should I have done?” I’m standing in the bathroom, who knows what time. Eyes are red, nose running, and my stomach aches. It’s funny how being deeply sad and joyously happy look the same. Snot drips on my shirt, my neck feels moist, and still arms hang at my side and I simply gaze at this person. Flashes of the last few weeks come back to me. I’ve stood here a lot lately when no one else could see me. What could I have done? He holds me close, “You should have invited him, but you didn’t. Now you need to learn from it.” I suddenly feel settled. He holds me tight as the minutes pass. The heartache lessens a bit and I can breathe. Nathan died, and maybe I could have saved him. I didn’t though, and now my life moves on. Months pass and life returns. Every couple weeks I find myself gazing at that odd man in the mirror again. Then it changes to once a month. Two years go by, and no one knows. I still feel like imploding, never speaking to anyone again, running away and finding a small shack in the woods. Tarvin, a buddy from down the street, talks about getting his new car. His voice trails off in my mind for a bit. Then he asks me if something is a good idea. What does it matter? God, is this really that important? “Is what a good idea again?” The days begin to merge. One week passes in a blur. Three weeks pass. After getting home one Wednesday, I sit next to my bed just inside my room, and the sounds of my parents getting home filter in. I crawl around to the thin space next to the far wall. This mattress is tall enough--they won’t see me sitting here. My name rings in my head, a far-off gong beckoning me back to reality. I slouch below the edge as my father stands in the doorway. He can’t see me. There it is, my name again, then quiet. Mom and Dad must be at church. How long have I been sitting here? Why? It’s dark outside. Then it flashes through my head again. All the possible responses were clear in my head for once, and then my Dad’s words echo from the past. I calmly take a step towards him and say, “Don’t let your fucking pride get in the way of taking care of your family. I didn’t do this for you, asshole. Take this and buy your baby some diapers and get a good apartment.” He just looks at me for a moment, and then I leave. Every day for the next two months, I quietly hand him my tips. The harassment stops, and, on my final day, before I head back to the states, we simply nod at each other before I walk out. *** A few months later, Callie, a good friend from the cheerleading squad, tells me she is dating a college guy. She explains that her parents hate that she’s dating him and wants her to break it off. Her eyes look desperate, defensive. I hug her while standing in the rain and tell her that she is beautiful and smart and that she shouldn’t do anything rash just to spite her parents. I remind her that she has a sweet heart with good insight. She stares at me, wanting a straightforward answer. “Take some time.” Her eyes still locked. She shouldn’t be doing this. What is she thinking!--QUIET! “Damn, Travis! Are you even paying attention?” Tarvin asks. “This is important!” “Listen to your heart. You know the answer. Just focus on being open to hearing it.” Callie gives me a hug, kisses me on the cheek, and walks off. Ironic. “Sorry man, just got lost in thought. What was it again?” “Should I ask Tracy out!?! Do you think I have a chance?” Yup, not that important. “Yeah man, you should go for it. You got this.” A couple weeks later, I walk into my youth pastor’s office, “Hey, Shane, you got a bit to talk?” I’m standing over the kitchen sink looking at my fingertips; they glisten from the single light over the counter. Then my hands are dull and I’m sitting in bed. Don’t remember falling asleep or waking up, just seemed to come to as a buddy asks me if I am coming to class. He tells me, as we are walking to biology, that I was just standing there, looking off into space. OCCASIONS “Yeah, of course. What’s up?” I carefully walk him through that day, but before I even explain what I’ve been going through he jumps in. *** I’m standing at the end of the grocery store register in the commissary on the Air Force base in Guam. Only months ago, I was standing with Callie in the rain. Now I’m packing paper bags with an older lady’s food. Seems like a world away. Another bagger stands behind me arguing with his girlfriend. “It’s not your fault, Travis. Nathan made his own choice.” So this is what it feels like to be disregarded. I say OK but, why then should we care about how we treat others at all if their actions are their own and we can’t change them? Why be nice, or considerate. . . . There has to be something real in what I am feeling. My mind reels again, lost after two years of trying to find myself. *** Thoughts of what Shane said run around the track in my mind for a few days. I stand in the doorway to my parents’ bedroom. My father, having just got home from a twelve-hour stint on the runway at 24 “We can’t survive like this!” he yells. “We have to, or I will on my own! I’m not getting rid of our baby!” she yells back as she returns to her register. For months, this guy wouldn’t stop making fun of me for being a “haole” (off- islander). He would speak in his native language to all of the older ladies that bagged with us. Tauntingly, they laughed and pointed at me throughout each day. Many times, I wanted to tackle him after work for how he made me feel. My heart twists though when I hear their fight. That day, I make some of the highest tips ever. That one old lady gives me a twenty dollar bill for carrying two bags to her car. I walk away with over sixty dollars for four hours of work. As I meander out to my bike, this bully of a guy saunters out behind me. I stop him before he got to his car and without a word place the wad of money in his hand. He looks at me with resentment and says, “I don’t need your fucking money.” Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 25 OCCASIONS Becoming Changing Woman By Kiimberly Preston As I took off running to the east, the first beams of sunlight peaked above the horizon, transforming the sky into a million shades of pink. Although I had been awake all night, I felt alert and energized as I ran in the thick woven wool dress and turquoise jewelry. My heavy necklace bounced against my chest as the chill air whipped my face and my newly washed hair flew behind me. My moccasins felt light on my feet despite being bound in huge layers of buckskin around my calves. As the sun began to rise higher, I started hearing the sounds of my family and friends running behind me in support. As I came to a stop on top of a tall rock ledge and looked out over the vast desert landscape, I felt different. I knew that when I returned back to everyone, I would be seen as an adult instead of the small middle-schooler I was. Growing up, I visited my family on the reservation often, sitting quietly in small hogans1 and trailers, listening as my family babbled away in Navajo. “Yá’át’ééh2 child,” they would say as the shook my small little hands. They would sit and talk for hours, intermixing English and Navajo words in each sentence. When I was lucky, I could escape out into the dry red dirt and play with my cousins until the stray dogs came around looking for food. We would wander down dusty dirt roads until we could look out across the edge of the mesa. Or, we would ride in the back of a pickup, out to my parent’s hogan that has a clear view of the San Francisco Peaks, one of the four sacred mountains. I was always the “cousin from California,” the one kid who didn’t look native, the one kid with colored eyes and lighter hair. My skin wasn’t so dark, and I either wasn’t so tall or wasn’t as round as the other kids. I hadn’t lived in a trailer on the reservation my whole life, wasn’t learning Navajo in school, and hadn’t grown up in the harsh desert climate. I was somewhat of an outsider, and although everyone knew I was different, I was still family and had still grown up with an understanding of the traditional beliefs. Once I got older, everyone would ask my parents, “When will you have her kinaaldá3?” “Where will it be?” “Better start preparing 1 Hogan (HO-gahn): eight-sided building that is a traditional Navajo home. Usually has a dirt floor with a smoke hole in the roof to draft a central fire. Also used for traditional ceremonies. 2 Yá’át’ééh (ya-at-eh): Navajo greeting used for “Hello”. Literally translates to, “It is good.” 3 Kinaaldá (kee-nahl-DAH): traditional coming-of-age ceremony for Navajo girls. now.” Much like in the Jewish tradition, the Navajo perform a comingof-age ceremony for girls when they reach puberty, but, instead of one large service, the kinaaldá is a few days long. I had been looking forward to mine for years, with nervousness and anticipation. The ceremony would transition me into adulthood and demonstrate my strength in front of an entire community. In some ways, I was surprised at how many people wanted to help me into this new stage in my life. From the cooking to the nightlong prayers, every member of the family was involved. Family friends from around the country, who had seen me grow up, came, and even people I had never met were there to support me and celebrate the traditional and ancient ceremony that would bring another Diné4 woman into the community. All these people stayed up with me throughout the nights of prayers, and they spent the days keeping me awake and giving me advice. The medicine man and his wife sat with me for hours during the day, talking to me about my new responsibilities as a woman and how to respect myself, and others, and continue to work hard in everything I do to make an impact on the world. For an entire day, I sat in the sweltering hogan, grinding corn with a grinding stone for the alkaad, which is a large cake baked during the last part of the ceremony. The circular cake, which spanned a few feet in diameter, was placed in the ground lined by cornhusks and buried. A large fire was built on top and tended to throughout the night by my uncle Roy, brother Bob, and other male family members. While I grinded corn, a sheep was slaughtered and traditionally skinned by the women to prepare for a large meal the next day. I took a break and watched in astonishment as my grandma dug though a large bowl of sheep intestines, preparing a traditional dish of intestines coiled around strips of fat and grilled. In addition to the cake preparation, I was required to run in the four directions at dawn, noon, and dusk to show my endurance and strength. The ceremony was grueling, and when I wasn’t working on grinding corn or running, I was struggling to stay awake from being up all night in prayer. OCCASIONS Coming into the ceremony, I was still a girl--a girl who loved her culture and was eager to be brought into the world as a young woman in such a special and spiritual way. The story of Changing Woman, the daughter of First Man and First Woman, had been told to me as a young child and depicts the first kinaaldá. She created the plan for the Earth, and from her skin she created the initial four clans, one of which, Tó dích’íinii, or Bitter Water Clan, is mine. Just like Changing Woman, I ran for the last time, starting before the sun had risen on the last day. My hair been freshly washed with yucca5 root and tied back in a Tsii’yeel6 by my mother as the fire above the corn cake died down outside. A lot relied on the cake. A good cake meant a good future, cooked all the way through without any burns. When I returned from the run, the sun had risen all the way, and even more people had arrived for the end of the ceremony. Seeing all the people standing around waiting, waiting for me, was intimidating, but I knew I now possessed the strength to push past my shyness and be introduced to my community. They had all come to be blessed. Not by the medicine man. But by me. In the Navajo culture, women are the leaders and are sacred for their ability to bear children and to nurture. When people hear about a kinaaldá taking place, they come from all around to be blessed by the new woman. As over a hundred people formed a line, I lay down on a rug outside, and my closest female family members began to touch my arms and legs, symbolically molding me into a woman. After, each person approached and asked me to bless and mold them. Many asked me to touch their back to heal pain or their head to clear their minds of any bad thoughts. Although it felt strange to be seen as a healer, the feelings of maturity began to come to me. I was now the center of attention and focus of everyone’s prayers in a community that I was only able to visit a couple times a year and had often felt separate from. Often, I had felt like I couldn’t relate to my cousins or other women in my family because I had not grown up the same way as them and hadn’t lived in an entire community of Native peoples my whole life. I had always been proud of my heritage and was grateful I was able to experience traditional ceremonies my whole life, but I had never felt so accepted into my community until then. As the ceremony ended, and the women in my family greeted me, I realized I had been accepted and initiated into a group of strong and spiritual women who understood the significance of the traditional ways and teachings and who would continue to teach me the ways of my people. The warmth and support that surrounded me were amazing. “You’re doing great,” everyone said. “If only your father was here; he would be so proud to see you doing this,” my tiny frail grandmother said to me one morning. I knew that although he wasn’t there to support me physically, he was thinking about me and staying up all night in prayer as well. 5 Yucca: An evergreen plant in the agave family, with stiff, spiked leaves and clusters of white flowers. The root squeezed in water makes a soapy liquid. Leaves can be beaten and the fibers woven into baskets or rope. Native Americans also use the plant for several medicinal purposes. 4 Diné (dee-NEH): Navajo word meaning “The People,” which Navajos use to describe themselves. 6 Tsii’yeel (SEET-yeel): Traditional hair bun of a Navajo woman. Tied at the back of her head and tied with white buckskin or white yarn, it signifies that she is a woman. 26 Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 27 OCCASIONS Subsidizing Inequality: The Socioeconomic Effects of the North American Free Trade Agreement on Mexican Corn Producers By Emma Salditt Abstract T his report examines the socioeconomic effect of the North American Free Trade Agreement (NAFTA) on Mexico’s largest agricultural sector, the corn industry. The purpose of this report is to address NAFTA’s lack of regulation on U.S. corn subsidies, which heavily distort the salability of Mexican corn. Having not been met with the appropriate policies to fully ensure free trade between the NAFTA nations, Mexico’s once most profitable export crop is now dwarfed by the artificially low prices of American corn. Although free market reform and economic integration under NAFTA promised prosperity in Mexico, millions of people have been affected by trade-distorting corn subsidies and are now forced to migrate to Mexico’s extremely overcrowded urban areas. The lack of economic opportunities in these urban areas has subsequently led to an increase in both legal and illegal Mexican immigration into the United States. Lacking in profitable incentives to diminish U.S. corn subsidies, an overwhelming number of U.S. policy makers choose to ignore the economic disparities that their profit-driven policies are forcing onto Mexico’s agricultural sector. After contextualizing the effects of corn trade on the increase of Mexican immigrants to the U.S., this report will provide a variety of policy proposals intended to influence decisions made by policy makers, economically active outside parties, and consumers alike. Exposing North America’s Political Economy I n the context of today’s international political economy, the policies and guidelines that govern the international trade of commodities have varying social and political effects on all countries, regions, and sectors of contemporary society. The North American Free Trade Agreement (NAFTA) has become a key player in the inevitable interdependence of countries in today’s global economy. What NAFTA lacks, however, are transparent policy guidelines that ensure its three member States receive proportional socioeconomic gains from the agreement. In this situational report published for the Foreign Affairs periodical, I intend to expose to readers the devastating socioeconomic effects of NAFTA on the livelihoods of Mexican agricultural producers, specifically those in the corn industry. This report intends to first shed light on how trade under NAFTA has affected the standard of living for corn producers in Mexico and will then further analyze how this correlates to Mexican immigration across the border into the United States. I will begin by underlining the reasons for and impacts of trade between the three nations and then look at the costs and benefits of free-trade-distorting protection measures such as tariffs and subsidies. This theoretical knowledge will then be applied to the case of sensitive corn trading between Mexico and the U.S. after the implementation of NAFTA. Once the case of corn trade in NAFTA is exposed, I will bring forth evidence that solidifies NAFTA’s causal relationship to the increase of Mexican immigration into the U.S.. Finally, the report will offer various policy recommendations that could be adopted by both the Mexican and American governments, as well as their consumers, in order to truly promote equality through free trade. False Promises under NAFTA NAFTA is a trilateral “free trade” agreement between the United States, Canada, and Mexico that was officially enacted on January 1, 1994, after the U.S. and Canada found it mutually advantageous to include Mexico in their forum for trade. NAFTA’s original intention was to act as a forum among the three trading relationships to enhance the economies of the U.S., Canada, and Mexico while simultaneously promoting democracy through the prosperity of free trade. However, adverse effects of NAFTA were felt in particular by Mexican corn producers, one of the most historically and culturally significant agricultural sectors in Mexico’s economy. Why Corn Isn’t Mexico’s Market With a newly established commitment by the Mexican government to market liberalization and capitalism, U.S. export industries were adamant about Mexico’s joining NAFTA. The promise of new markets, untapped capital, and an eager workforce convinced nations like the U.S. to confidently invest in Mexico’s rapidly growing industries. With all three States eager to sign, NAFTA was drafted with the intentions of significantly reducing trade-distorting agricultural measures; however, despite the relief of tariffs, quotas, and international subsidies, U.S. domestic subsidies on selected crops remained high. In turn, these barriers to trade distorted the price of American corn up to 40 percent, making U.S. corn appear significantly cheaper than its Mexican counterpart (Wise, 2010). After the Mexican peso crisis of the late 1980s subsided, Mexico’s economy underwent a large structural change, transforming the majority of Mexico’s state-owned enterprises into privately owned corporations. Mexico has since seen a boom in private industries and investment projects, ultimately promoting semi-rapid industrialization and an increase in international investment, trade creation, and foreign competition (Oatley, 2012). This new form of economic stability has, however, not been realized in Mexico’s 28 OCCASIONS once large agricultural sector. According to The Hecksher-Ohlin model of trade, which accounts for “cross-national differences in factor endowments,” we would expect Mexico to capitalize on their abundant factors of production, namely arable land and an abundance of cheap labor (Oatley, 2012, p.161). However, the opposite phenomenon is occurring. Domestic agricultural subsidies on U.S. crops, provided by the USDA and independent farmer associations, remain much too high for the largely decentralized Mexican corn producers to compete. By capitalizing on political and economic power to circumvent NAFTA, U.S. subsidies on corn not only violate the fundamentals of the agreement but also contradict American values of democracy (debate .org). In 1993, over 3 million subsistence corn farmers were recorded in Mexico, meaning they produced enough to support only their family and farms (Cornelius & Martin, 1993). On average, these farmers own about 5 acres of land on which they grow and harvest their corn (Cornelius & Martin, 1993). In addition to small farm owners, another 3 million workers without their own land perform daily labor for small private landowners (Wise, 2012). To support its largest agricultural market, the Mexican government adopted a program in 1990 called “Procampo,” in which direct cash payments were provided to farmers based on their output of corn (U.S.-Mexico Chamber of Commerce, 2012). Once “Procampo” was completely phased out in 2008, revenue in Mexico’s maize sector further declined in the wake of American competition. Ever since, cheap American corn has been dumped on the Mexican market, ultimately displacing a massive number of small-scale Mexican corn producers and leaving them with no choice but to turn north. Why Corn Should be Mexico’s Market The production of corn and other traditional agricultural commodities has historically played a large role in the Mexico’s economy, culture, and identity. According to an extensive 1993 report produced by Wayne A. Cornelius and Philip L. Martin titled “The Uncertain Connection: Free Trade and Rural Mexican Migration to the United States,” over 30 percent of Mexico’s 115 million inhabitants relied on the high prices of Mexican corn as a safety net prior to NAFTA (Cornelius & Martin, 1993 I CIA World Factbook). Before NAFTA, the Mexican government supported high prices of corn by buying it at a price double that of the world price. According to the United States-Mexico Chamber of Commerce, Mexican agriculture is a much more significant factor in Mexico’s GDP than it is in the U.S. Recent statistics show that agriculture still contributes to 8 percent of Mexico’s GDP and employs around 22 percent of its total labor force, which is roughly 8 million workers (U.S.-Mexico Chamber of Commerce, 2012). In the U.S., however, agriculture composes only 2 percent of total GDP and employs a mere 2.7 percent of the workforce, estimated at about 3.8 million workers (U.S.-Mexico Chamber of Commerce, 2012). It is clear through these simple statistics that Mexico has a traditional comparative advantage over the U.S. in agricultural production. In regards to corn production, however, U.S. domestic price support, coupled with better transportation, more efficient farming techniques, and economies of scale, leaves Mexican maize producers completely dwarfed. The Reality of Joining NAFTA A Lack of Infrastructure In collaboration with the Mexican Institute of Economic Competitiveness, The World Bank produced a detailed report in 2007 titled “Integration of the North American Market for Sensitive Agricultural Policies,” which outlines the policy implications for Mexican producers and consumers in the corn market. The paper suggests that Mexican producers are much less competitive than their North American counterparts and that, with the elimination of American subsidy support programs, the farmers’ competitiveness will continue to decrease (World Bank, 2007). Evidence from the report suggests that Mexico’s lack of agricultural competitiveness with U.S. crops is an issue deeply rooted in its lack of proper supply chains and distribution mechanisms. This problem is nothing new to small scale Mexican producers; however, the consequences from the lack of infrastructure and technology have been largely exacerbated under NAFTA. Lacking the institutional structures and distribution methods to efficiently distribute corn on a large scale, Mexico’s small and medium-scale producers suffer from a yield gap as low as 43% a year (Wise, 2010). It has been estimated that most of the country’s rainfed farms operate with a yield potential of up to 50% less than they would if farmers had access to largescale irrigation techniques. Lacking similar institutional structures and government funded subsidy programs given to American corn producers, Mexican farmers find themselves struggling to breathe under the growing mountain of cheap corn imported from America. The Burden of U.S. Corn Subsidies Once NAFTA expanded to include the Mexican market in 1994, it was agreed that a set of sensitive agricultural products were allowed a 15-year transition period, during which existing protection measures could gradually be eliminated (Wise, 2010). Corn, representing a staple agricultural product in all three markets, fell into this category. However, when this transition period came to an end in 2008, the elimination of agricultural tariffs and quotas was observed, but federal domestic subsidies remained undisciplined. Timothy A. Wise, policy program research director at Tufts University and specialist on agricultural policy and rural development in Latin America, offers extremely valuable insight into the real effects of agricultural trade in Mexico. In his paper, “The Impact of U.S. Agricultural Policies on Mexican Producers” (2010), Wise suggests that NAFTA poses clear risks to the large smallholder population in Mexico whose livelihoods depend heavily on crop competition with the U.S.. His central argument, adopted by many trade experts, suggests that although reductions in tariffs and quotas have already taken place, trade-distorting U.S. subsidies continue to dwarf the Mexican corn market. Wise depicts this devastating blow to the Mexican corn market by stating that in 1996, after a mere two years of NAFTA, there was an import increase of over 400 percent of American corn (Wise, 2010). Statistics from the U.S. Environmental Working Group’s farm subsidy database suggest that domestic corn subsidies between the years of 1995 and 2011 have totaled $89,752,363,872 over the 16- 29 OCCASIONS year period, averaging at about 5.6 billion dollars a year, depending on the year’s harvest conditions (EWG: Farm Subsidies, 2012). Corn is harvested on over 400,000 farms in the U.S., collectively encompassing 72.7 million acres (U.S. Environmental Protection Agency, 2013). In the year 2000 alone, the average receipts from U.S. corn sales amounted to a whopping $15.1 billion (U.S. Environmental Protection Agency, 2013). Lacking the assurance of subsidy safety nets that guarantee U.S. corn producers large recipients, Mexican farmers have been forced to make strategic decisions about whether to continue suffering from declining competition of their products or to uproot their traditional livelihoods in search of better economic opportunities. According to Oxfam, the price of U.S. corn arrives on Mexican markets at an average of 19 percent below the cost of and the host State. The rate of displaced and unemployed Mexican corn producers and their families is too high for the insufficient number of jobs offered in urban areas of Mexico, resulting in higher unemployment rates in both urban and rural sectors. NAFTA initially promised the Mexican economy that, through Foreign Direct Investment (FDI) from the U.S. and Canada, there would be a massive increase in the demand for labor in Mexico’s urban areas. However, due to the volatile economic conditions in the late 1990s and early 2000s, the potential to undergo the “modernization of Mexico’s economy” was not realized and is ultimately leaving people with little choice but to leave Mexico behind (Relinger, 2010, p.16). When applying the socioeconomic principle of rational choice theory, we can easily explain the increasing trend in migration out of rural Mexico. This theory assumes that both individuals and Despite the colorblind rhetoric of recent years, the design of the War on Drugs effectively guarantees that those swept into the criminal justice system are predominately black and brown. African Americans are not significantly more likely to use or sell illegal drugs than whites, but they are made criminals at extraordinarily higher rates for the same conduct. production in Mexico. In an interview conducted by the American Organic Consumers Association with local Mexican corn producer Casto Davila in the southern state of Jaisco, Davila expressed that “farmers have long since felt abandoned” and that he and his father barely break even with rock-bottom corn prices of .25 cents per kilogram (Campbell & Hendricks, 2006). Since NAFTA, prices for corn decreased 66 percent in Mexico in relation to pre-NAFTA prices (Wise, 2010). Although NAFTA claims that overall consumer welfare in Mexico is enhanced by means of cheaper food and lower inflation rates through the reduction in government spending on corn subsidies, highly adverse impacts were felt by the 2.3 million people who, since the time of NAFTA, have left agriculture in Mexico (Wise, 2010). In addition to their displacement, over 5 million “unpaid family farm members” have also been forced to migrate elsewhere (Wise, 2010). The overproduction and dumping of American corn has cost Mexican corn farmers around $6.6 billion between the years of 1997-2005, averaging at a loss of $700 million a year (Wise, 2010). In terms of the losses felt by individual farms, this averages out to a loss of $99/hectare per year, a devastating blow to centuries of tradition in Mexico (Oxfam). The Costly Pursuit for Stability The Stress of Subsidies on Labor Migration To grasp Mexico’s socioeconomic agricultural problem in its entirety, it is essential that this report provide insight on how U.S. corn exports to Mexico are pushing Mexicans to immigrate into the U.S. in search of better economic opportunities. Modern theories of interstate labor migration suggest that migration trends are highly dependent on the economic conditions in both the country of origin groups make logical decisions that provide them with the most beneficial outcomes in terms of social and economic status. Applying this theory to migration in Mexico entails making a rational decision by looking at both “push” and “pull” factors, as well as weighing the costs and benefits of remaining in the corn industry. Implications of this can be noted by the large rise in displaced Mexican farmers who have been forced or “pushed” away from their long tradition of producing corn. The movement of agricultural laborers in Mexico can be characterized by “push” factors such as unemployment, poverty, and lack of other business opportunities in rural Mexico. These “push” factors have resulted in a migratory trends towards urban areas in Mexico; however, employment prospects continue to remain low in overcrowded urban areas that have yet to benefit from the promise of increased FDI in Mexico after NAFTA. The “pull” factors encouraging emigration into the U.S. are extremely prominent. These factors include the prospect of job security, higher wages, joining established social networks, and, ultimately, a higher standard of living. Thus, as the profit prospects for smalland medium-sized domestic corn producers continue to drastically decrease, the displacement of millions of workers in Mexico’s largest agricultural sector is inevitable. With the lack in effective policies large enough to properly retrain and reallocate these workers into other sectors of the work force, the trend in the immigration of displaced workers in rural Mexico across the border into the United States will continue to grow. To Run or Not to Run? Job creation in urban areas was to some extent noticed by means of FDI and export diversification, but not nearly enough opportunities were created to compensate for those displaced 30 OCCASIONS by the shrinking profit margins in the agricultural sector. Since the beginning of NAFTA, experts have argued that, with the liberalized flow of goods, services, and capital, it remains puzzling that regulations concerning the flow of people were not liberalized but rather strengthened. It was largely believed that the trade agreement would reduce illegal immigration from Mexico because Mexicans would, as claimed by Uchitelle, “enjoy the prosperity and employment that the trade agreement would undoubtedly generate” (Uchitelle, 2007). Uchitelle notes that “tens of thousands of farmers who cultivated corn would act ‘rationally’ and continue farming, even as less expensive corn imported from the United States flooded the market” and then slowly diversify into exporting other agricultural products (Uchitelle, 2007). What they have been exporting to the U.S., however, is themselves, with many joining family already in the U.S.. The rational pursuit for stable employment and better wages (or the prospect of a wage at all) has created a “network effect” in which many young Mexicans have mobilized themselves in growing numbers to join family already in the United States. Jeffrey Passel, a demographer at the Pew Hispanic Institute, reveals the hard truth aboput Mexican emigration to the U.S., stating that the number has risen from less than 400,000 immigrants a year preNAFTA in the early 1990s to more than 500,000 a year recorded in 2007 (Uchitelle,2007). Passel also estimates that “roughly 80 percent to 85 percent of immigrants are [in the U.S.] illegally,” of which the majority are displaced rural families (Uchitelle, 2007). The ability of displaced Mexican corn producers to move to new industries within Mexico requires acquiring new skills and relocating families, both of which are too timely and costly to be provided by the Mexican government. Thus, millions of corn producers and their families are left to evaluate the “push” factors leading them to emigrate and the “pull” factors attracting them to a developed country such as the United States. Costs of immigration are high due to America’s strict border controls; risks include costs to human life during travel and on the border as well as the separation of families. The increase in Mexican migrant social bases and networks in the U.S. are encouraging border crossing. Through this, it is clear that as these socioeconomic networks continue to strengthen, incentives pulling migrants into the U.S. will increase cross border emigration, just as it has been since 1994. How to Hold On Restructuring Mexico from Within Restructuring domestic agricultural and infrastructural policies in Mexico would be the most enduring way to alleviate unemployment in its agricultural sector. However, this will be very costly for the decentralized Mexican government. A committee within NAFTA should be appointed to take financial responsibility to invest in such structural changes in the Mexican economy. Investments should be made in transportation infrastructure such as rail access to facilitate the movement of goods between producers and markets. Warehouses for crop storage should be made available to farming communities in order to facilitate producers in managing sales and reducing risk. NAFTA should also organize and fund largescale informational and skill training campaigns to teach farmers about more efficient techniques and familiarize them with new farming technology. Often lacking credit to make investments in their farms, the Mexican government could implement microcredit loan programs, allowing farmers to finance their production with appropriate resources. When offered appropriate techniques to do so, Mexican corn producers could capture their comparative advantage in small niche markets such as red corn and blue corn. Shifting the Spotlight By creating a more permeable border for the flow of goods, services, and capital, NAFTA officials failed to consider the implications it would have on immigration due to the massive number of displaced farmers unable to find jobs in Mexico’s urban areas. The traditional dynamics of Mexican agriculture production were thrown out of place after NAFTA and were not met with substantial economic or social reforms to compensate those affected. In his analysis on immigration trends post NAFTA, researcher Peter Andreas states that “concerns over labor migration were deliberately excluded from NAFTA negotiations” and placed in the “too hot to handle” category so not to overshadow the potential economic benefits it could bring Mexico (Andreas, 1996). Patterns of labor migration from Mexico into the U.S. have been prevalent in North American history for at least a century; however, after NAFTA, these patterns have proliferated to affect broader groups in Mexican society. Rethinking Immigration In order to alleviate the socioeconomic pressures of Mexican emigration into the U.S., it is essential that both governments agree to revise their current emigration policies. In order for these revisions to be approved by American citizens, discussions must be transparent and should reflect the commitment to democracy that NAFTA once stood for. Both the U.S. and Mexican governments should correlate to provide social and economic networks as well as informational resources in cities where large portions of Mexican immigrants reside. Education opportunities for children entering with their families are essential because they would help to integrate these families into American society and facilitate future employment prospects. Training immigrants to acquire skills relevant to the U.S. job market will ultimately benefit the American workforce. Providing these benefits to the whole family will also decrease the amount of remittances to Mexico, effectively leaving more money to stay in circulation in the American economy. The tradeoff to pursuing these policies is social aggravation, which would be felt by American citizens who may believe these immigrants are a burden to the U.S. economy and society. To alleviate this, Americans should be informed through informational campaigns on the benefits immigrant workers bring to the U.S. economy. Naturally, these policies will take time to develop and formalize, but it is essential that immigration policy be adjusted to compensate those displaced from liberalized economic policies after NAFTA. 31 OCCASIONS Our Responsibility Alleviating the hardships felt in Mexico as a result of NAFTA does not start and stop at the hands of elected bureaucrats. For economically active members in contemporary society, it is the responsibility of U.S. consumers to seek justice for hard-working Mexican farmers and restore dignity to their fields. Drawing attention to the highly successful Delano Grape Strike in the U.S. during the late 1960s, consumers and producers alike were able to collectively lobby for the equal rights of small-scale U.S. grape producers against the profit-hungry agribusiness elites. Starting as a small grassroots movement, the boycott soon took wind across the Unites States, with both consumers and producers realizing the importance of supporting small-scale agricultural production. The current situation has stark similarities to the grape crisis of 40 years ago, only this time American agribusiness elites are compromising the livelihoods of fellow agricultural producers across our southern border. However, the issues’ implications do not end in Mexico; the increase of illegal immigration into the U.S. has put immense pressure on American industries and institutions. For voters and consumers, it is the responsibility of American citizens to act as the voice of Mexican corn producers. Through both small- and largescale government lobbying, as well as a change in our corn purchasing habits, American consumers possess the ability to help millions of Mexicans without a voice. References Andreas, P. (1996). U.S.-Mexico: Open markets, closer boarders. Foreign Policy (103rd Ed), 51-69. The Washington Post. Retrieved from http://www.jstor.org/stable/1149202. Campbell,M.,& Hendricks, T.(2006, July). NAFTA & dumping subsidized corn on Mexico has driven 1.5 million farmers off the land & forced millions to migrate. Organic Consumers Association. Retrieved from http://www. organicconsumers .org/art i cles/article 1371.cfm Cornelius, W., and Martin, P. (1993) . 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OCCASIONS Child Soldiers: More Than Meets the Eye By Kelsey Harbert Recent studies of child soldiers and ex-combatants in the eastern provinces of the Democratic Republic of the Congo (DRC) have yielded groundbreaking results concerning the aftershocks of childhood exposure to trauma. According to public opinion, child soldiers are the embodiment of trauma-related disorders such as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). This disorder is to child soldiers what coughing is to the common cold in that it is an assumed de facto result of exposure to traumatic events. Contrary to this popular (and by no means unwarranted) public opinion, researchers who study child soldiers find a consistent and unexpected drop in the severity of PTSD symptoms. In 2010, Hecker, Hermenau, Maedl, Schauer, and Elbert reported an expected diagnostic rate for PTSD of 50-60% but found that only 20% of their sample met the diagnostic criteria for PTSD (p.5). Given the abominable experiences reported by child soldiers, including but not limited to violent rape, parricide (killing of family), beatings, and psychological abuse, it is near incomprehensible to observe such low rates of PTSD. Assuming results are replicable and valid, how could such results be possible? The answers lie in a subtype of aggression referred to as appetitive aggression. It is extremely prevalent in child soldiers and since its discovery has been deemed a natural buffer for PTSD and other trauma-related disorders. And, given popular misconceptions about the dichotomy in human nature such as good versus evil, it is also one of the most challenging for mental health professionals and social workers to treat. Before one dives into empirical data on their relationship with child soldiers and ex-combatants in the DRC, it is crucial to establish a working definition of PTSD and appetitive aggression. In terms of defining PTSD, it is best to refer to the DSM-V, a diagnostic tool used by mental health professionals as the standard classification for recognized mental illnesses. According to the PTSD section of DSM5.org, “exposure to actual or threatened death, serious injury, or sexual violation” can result in the development of PTSD. The and/or aggression (fight) in response to the traumatic event(s). In cases of PTSD, aggression is rare and is more often facilitative than instrumental. Herein lies the point of departure for appetitive aggression, which is considered a subtype of instrumental aggression and is not present in PTSD symptoms involving aggression. The symptoms of PTSD can include two main forms of aggression: facilitative and instrumental. In 2013, researchers Weierstall, Haer, Banholzer, and Elbert defined facilitative aggression as “a response towards a threat or an aversive stimulus” (p. 506). Instrumental aggression was described in the same study as, “goaldirected or planned” (p. 506). Appetitive aggression is a subtype of instrumental aggression, and, as stated above, is not present in PTSD symptoms. What sets appetitive aggression apart from the two main types of aggression is an attraction to the perpetration of violent acts. It is characterized by the perpetrator’s perception of violent acts as being exciting, arousing, stimulating, and/or fascinating. It is easier to identify the differences between appetitive aggression and facilitative aggression than it is to identify the differences between appetitive aggression and its umbrella, instrumental aggression. Weierstall et al. (2013) explained the differences between the two: “The appetitive aspect of aggression is characterized by violence-related cues such as struggling of the victim, irrespective of secondary rewards such as gaining status or reproductive success, as would be required for instrumental aggression” (p. 506). As a subtype of instrumental aggression, appetitive aggression shares predator-like behaviors such as rape and murder. In order to understand the differences between the two, their respective motivations have to be examined. As the passage explains, instrumental aggression is motivated by secondary rewards while appetitive aggression treats the act of violence as a reward in itself. Perhaps equally as challenging is to understand the relationship The experience of a child soldiers does not exist as a dichotomy so much as it exists on a continuum. There are layers to how psychology, economy, politics and development influence violent behavior. report goes on to describe the behavioral symptoms of PTSD as “reexperiencing, avoidance, negative cognitions and mood, and arousal.” In general terms, PTSD is associated with the “fight or flight” response. Victims often exhibit marked signs of avoidance (flight) PWR Home 32 between appetitive aggression and PTSD in child soldiers. The challenge is to disregard the common misconception that perpetrators of violent acts associated with appetitive aggression are psychopathic, sadists, and/or “evil.” Given the seemingly arbitrary acts of violence 33 OCCASIONS against innocent men, women, and children, the experience of the child soldiers is vulnerable to biased exploitation by those who operate on such assumptions. Dichotomous approaches can result in misdiagnoses, inadequate reintegration programs, and, worst of all, further harm to the subjects. So, if appetitive aggression is not restricted to psychosis or sadism, what is it? According to at least three major studies, Hecker et al. (2010), Hermenau et al. (2013) , and Weierstall et al. (2013), appetitive aggression is an adaptive response triggered by evolutionary survival instincts. Its adaptive qualities are referred to as the functionality of aggression in Weierstall et al. (2013, p. 506). The functionality of general aggression is related to things like reproductive success, group bonding, and the accumulation of wealth. (p. 506).) In the case of child soldiers, appetitive aggression serves as a buffer for PTSD and other trauma-related mental illnesses that might prevent them from surviving in a violent environment. According to a 2010 study by researchers, Elbert, Weierstall, and Schauer humans incorporate traumatic memories into one of two networks. The fear network “assembles all highly arousing emotional-sensory and somatic memories of the horror experience, while simultaneously losing the contextual information.” The authors explained that “one of the main consequences of untreated traumatic experiences is that the emotional-sensory (‘hot’) past continuously pushes into the present” (p. S103). In other words, PTSD is the result of a pathological fear network in which the negative emotions associated with the memory overwhelm the contextual factors and create a recurring experience as opposed to a recollection of a distant traumatic memory. For child soldiers, this means memories of rape, murder, beatings, etc. are not simply recalled but re-lived. This means they experience the trauma over and over again without actually processing it as an event separate from present reality. The hunting network functions similarly to the fear network as far as incorporating traumatic memories. However, in the hunting network, the memories are associated with positive emotions and are relived as a lustful experience rather than a traumatizing one (Elbert et al., 2010, p. S103). In this way, appetitive aggression serves as a buffer for PTSD and possibly for other trauma-related mental illnesses. Child soldiers with higher levels of appetitive aggression tend to behave antithetically to those with severe PTSD. For example, where soldiers exhibiting high levels of PTSD showed great difficulty in discussing traumatic events, soldiers with high levels of appetitive aggression relished the experiences as positive memories. They had essentially trained themselves (albeit with the unfortunate help of militia conditioning) to embrace violent acts rather than to abhor and fear them. Not only does appetitive aggression offer mental stability through an alternative processing network, but it also enables some children to do whatever is required of them to survive. Soldiers must participate in violent acts such as gang rape, murder, mutilation and other inhumane acts. In a 2013 study researchers, Trenholm, Olsson, Blomqvist, and Ahlberg reported that violence was perpetuated by death threats from comrades and leaders directed at both the soldier(s) and their loved ones (p. 211). Hence, appetitive aggression served as an adaptive response to a perilous, life-threatening environment. Despite its evolutionary qualities, appetitive aggression levels cannot be heightened in all child soldiers. In addition to the nature of associations for PTSD and appetitive aggression, studies have found several other factors that account for a significant amount of the variation in levels of appetitive aggression across higher level groups and lower level groups. One such study is Weierstall et al. (2013). The authors’ objective in this study was to determine significant predictors of higher levels of appetitive aggression in child soldiers in the DRC. The authors used the Appetitive Aggression Scale (AAS) to determine levels of appetitive aggression in non-abductees (joined willingly at least once), mixed (were abducted but joined willingly at least once) and abductees (abducted and never joined willingly). Their findings indicated that age of entry, rate of perpetration of violent acts types, and recruitment type were significant predictor variables for the variance in levels of appetitive aggression and PTSD symptom severity among child soldiers (p. 505). In sum, the authors found that younger age at entry, higher rates of perpetration types, and non-abductee recruitment type all accounted for higher levels of appetitive aggression. Furthermore, older age of entry, lower rates of perpetration types, and abductees and mixed recruitment types accounted for lower levels of appetitive aggression (p. 506). Children are like new Play-Doh. In the earlier stages of development, their brain structure is malleable. As with old PlayDoh, over time, they grow more resilient to external pressures on their cognitive behaviors. In 2012, University of Konstanz researchers Hecker, Hermenau, Maedl, Elbert, and Schauer offered a further explanation: “considering the plasticity of the brain (Elbert, Rockstroh, Kolassa Shauer, & Neuner, 2006), child soldiers are more likely to report appetitive aggression as they adapt best to the violent circumstances in armed groups” (p. 245). Neuroplasticity refers to the malleability of the brain to form new and/or change existing neural pathways and is greater earlier in life. Hence, the level to which child soldiers internalize the conditioning of the militias is largely dependent on their age at entry. The neuroplasticity of children is also why cult-like conditioning used in militias is so effective and thereby integral to the recruitment process. In addition to mentally and physically breaking down the child’s resolve, the routine beatings, gang rapes, and murders disrupt the regulation of appetitive aggression that evolutionists assert all males naturally possess. The regulation of appetitive aggression is orchestrated by civil socialization, which is a similar concept to primary socialization theory. It essentially posits that children learn social norms as well as deviant behaviors from their primary social sources--parents, school, and intimate groups of people. Through civil socialization, children learn appropriate types of aggression, and through the assimilation of social norms, their levels of appetitive aggression are regulated. The younger this process is disrupted by recruitment into an extremely violent environment, the more susceptible child soldiers are to assimilating deviant behaviors. Weierstall et al. (2013) reported that “upon entry into a combat force, the process of civil socialization that is essential for a regulation of appetitive aggression is impaired and replaced by the socialization in an armed movement that fosters violent and aggressive behavior” (pp. 506507). In support of the civil socialization perspective, Hecker et. al. (2010) offered a biological component to the discourse: “Normally, control mechanisms in the frontal lobe inhibit intraspecific violence 34 OCCASIONS (Kelly, 2005, Nelson & Trainer, 2007). However, dehumanization of the enemy . . . can break learned moral standards . . .”(p. 345). Dehumanization of the enemy is another way of describing a concept known as “othering” in psychology. Othering is one of the most efficient tools in the militarization of child soldiers because it basically rewires the brain to define the concept of “people” differently. When successfully indoctrinated, othering allows the soldiers to perpetrate acts of extreme violence such as violent rape (rape with use of glass shards, sticks, and other objects) and mass murder without remorse. In Trenholm et al. (2013), twelve child soldiers were interviewed at a reintegration center in the DRC that offers a three-month (minimum) program. The purpose of the interviews was to assess the effects of the construction process in militias on the development of child soldiers. One of the interviewees told the interviewer by way of translator that though he took many lives, none was a person. “He is saying that he didn’t kill any people, only . . . enemies” (p. 15). By dehumanizing the enemy, child soldiers are able to foster the growth of appetitive aggression with ease; this is especially true for the younger recruits. Recruitment type also shares a strong relationship with higher levels of appetitive aggression. Those who join willingly show higher levels of appetitive aggression and little to no symptoms of PTSD. Researchers believed a pre-existing level of appetitive aggression could possibly account for their reason for joining, for “45% of the combatants who joined on their own accord reported the desire to become a fighter as one reason for enlisting. . . . [T]hese combatants might feel more in control of their lives than abducted combatants” (Hecker et al., 2012, p. 247). This finding is not as generalizable as the age-of-entry finding because child soldiers with higher levels of appetitive aggression predating recruitment reported joining for a variety of reasons, mostly economically based rather than based on a pure desire for violence. Nonetheless, the strong relationship between recruitment type and levels of appetitive aggression indicated that recruits with higher levels of appetitive aggression were more likely to be nonabductees. Furthermore, non-abductees were more likely to cope with trauma better than abductees with lower levels of appetitive aggression. While appetitive aggression buffers the severity of PTSD symptoms, it cannot sustain its protective influence on the internalization of trauma indefinitely. According to Elbert et al. (2010), the reason the protection of appetitive aggression wanes in some cases is due to a phenomenon called “the building block effect” (p. S104). The building block effect occurs when “repeated exposure to different types of traumatic stressors cumulatively heightens the risk for PTSD symptoms . . . positive and negative memories that are linked to the perpetration of violence may not only trigger the hunting network but also the fear network” (Hecker et al., 2010, pp. 5-6). Based on these findings, it appears that all child soldiers have a threshold for traumatic experience that appetitive aggression cannot alter. In every study that found a negative relationship between PTSD symptom severity and levels of appetitive aggression, the researchers had to exclude combatants with extreme levels of PTSD symptom severity. Extreme levels of symptom severity indicate that the child’s threshold for trauma has been breached. As a result, the fear network extends into the hunting network, causing both the hunting and the fear network to be triggered by traumatic memories despite the pre-existing association with positive arousal. The triggering of the fear network results in the emergence of PTSD symptoms. This finding speaks to the fallacy of assuming predatory violence to be coming from an “evil” nature or psychotic state. While this can certainly be the case--as, for example, with sociopaths whose emotions are cold and who are incapable of experiencing remorse-it is not the case for most child soldiers. If they are purely evil and incapable of remorse, such a threshold would not exist, allowing them an endless supply of positive arousal in response to events that would otherwise be traumatic. Because this is not the case, it can be posited that child soldiers exhibiting higher levels of appetitive aggression are coping with a devastating situation to the best of their ability. At a certain point, their walls are breakable--a fact that is bittersweet for therapists because, without their defenses, child soldiers find the pain from the trauma debilitating. Research on demobilized and active duty children has contributed invaluable insight to the discourse on healing child soldiers not only in the DRC but in Uganda, Colombia, Angola and several other war-torn regions across the globe. Perhaps the most valuable insight happens to be the most general. The experience of child soldiers does not exist as a dichotomy so much as it exists on a continuum. There are layers to how psychology, economy, politics and development influence violent behavior. When their stories are listened to with an objective ear as opposed to a sensationalized filter, one can picture a web of interweaving stimuli and responses that account for the unspeakable tragedies witnessed and relayed in the media. To be sure, such knowledge cannot discount the atrocities of crimes against humanity such as violent rape, mass murder, and subjugation of innocent civilians. However, it can provide productive explanations that might lead to higher success rates in the healing and reintegration of child soldiers and ex-combatants. References Elbert, T., Weierstall, R., & Schauer, M. (2010). Fascination violence: On mind and brain of man hunters. European Archives of Psychiatry and Clinical Neuroscience, 260, 100-5. doi:http://dx.doi.org/10.1007/s00406-010-0144-8 Hecker, T., Hermenau, K., Maedl, A., Schauer, M., & Elbert, T. (2010). Aggression inoculates against PTSD symptom severity--insights from armed groups in the eastern DR congo. European Journal of Psychotraumatology, 4 doi:http://dx.doi.org/10.3402/ejpt.v4i0.20070 Hecker, T., Hermenau, K., Maedl, A., Elbert, T., & Schauer, M. (2012). Appetitive aggression in former combatants-derived from the ongoing conflict in DR congo. International Journal of Law and Psychiatry, 35(3), 244249. doi:http://dx.doi.org/10.1016/j.ijlp.2012.02.016 35 OCCASIONS OCCASIONS Hermenau, K., Hecker, T., Schaal, S., Maedl, A., & Elbert, T. (2013). Addressing post-traumatic stress and aggression by means of narrative exposure: A randomized controlled trial with ex-combatants in the eastern DRC. Journal of Aggression, Maltreatment & Trauma, 22(8), 916-934. doi:http://dx.doi.org/10.1080/10926771.2013.824057 Posttraumatic Stress Disorder. American Psychiatric Publishing, 2013. http://www.dsm5.org/Documents/PTSD%20 Fact%20Sheet.pdf The Hind By Jesse Wisniewski Trenholm, J., Olsson, P., Blomqvist, M., & Ahlberg, B. M. (2013). Constructing soldiers from boys in eastern democratic republic of congo. Men and Masculinities, 16(2), 203-227. doi:http://dx.doi.org/10.1177/1097184X12470113 I t sits there, massive and threatening, not thirty yards away. The sun rises beside a lone mountain behind it, silhouetting it against the hazy air and the bright concrete of the airstrip. I am dead tired after another busy twelve-hour night shift in the draining, never-ending schedule of “twelve-on, twelve-off.” A few coils of concertina wire separate where I stand from the edge of the airstrip, cluttered with cargo and vehicles. Rows and rows of tan b-huts stand on either side of me, concrete personnel bunkers here and there between them. Gravel crunches under my boots while a rifle sling bites into my shoulder. My stomach is full. I can still taste the yogurt from the chow hall behind me. The distant drone of a few moving aircraft fills the air, one occasionally taking off or landing. The breeze smells faintly of dust, exhaust, Weierstall, R., Haer, R., Banholzer, L., & Elbert, T. (2013). Becoming cruel: Appetitive aggression released by detrimental socialisation in former congolese soldiers. International Journal of Behavioral Development, 37(6), 505-513. doi:http://dx.doi. org/10.1177/0165025413499126 I start realizing something isn’t right about this particular Hind. It isn’t all there. The main rotor blades are missing, as is the tail rotor and the winglets that would have held weapons. Even the rotor hub is gone, a plain shaft sticking straight up out of the main body like a broken nail. The whole thing is rusty and dirty. Suddenly, it seems much less threatening, even pitiable in its helplessness, like a fly with its wings pulled off. Far from being a ready death machine, this is more like a museum piece or even just so much scrap metal. It is silent and lifeless. Is this what happens? When we leave, will we turn in our weapons and take off our uniforms, and no one will know Far from being the majestic accomplishment it was supposed to be, it is suddenly frighteningly pointless. We assign so much meaning to our wars, but I realize it is only in our minds. The machine and this land don’t care. and concrete. It gently sways some nearby weeds with small blue flowers, the color of the cloudless sky overhead. The temperature is perfect. This is early summer at Bagram Airfield. The air is so pleasant it is almost painful. I think this place has no right being so beautiful. It is Afghanistan, after all. I close my eyes briefly and almost fall asleep standing up, quickly forcing them back open. My buddy, Thuesen, stands next to me. We spend a few minutes here almost every day, just looking. We speak little, mainly of trying to imagine being on one of those planes, having it take us away from this place. We can’t really imagine it, though; we’ve been here too long. Nine months? Ten? I am too tired to remember exactly. My attention keeps returning to the thing in front of us. Something about it seems momentarily very important, as if there is something to be learned that outweighs even precious sleep. The thing is a gunship, a Russian attack helicopter, the one NATO refers to as Hinds. I have been trained to identify Hinds on satellite photos. They are true war machines, flying tanks, each with a maximum takeoff weight of over thirteen tons. This one sits in its own small area, sectioned off by concrete barriers and reminding me of a sleeping dragon on the verge of wakening. I wonder what its story is, how many lives it has ended or destroyed, and why it is here now. Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 36 what we did here? We may tell some, but the telling will never equal the doing, and eventually even the telling will be forgotten. Far from being the majestic accomplishment it was supposed to be, it is suddenly frighteningly pointless. We assign so much meaning to our wars, but I realize it is only in our minds. This machine and this land don’t care. We run around here fighting like the Russians before us, and the British before them, on and on all the way back to the Greeks. Any meaning it has all had is just what we’ve given it, deciding why and how it matters to us. It matters nothing at all to land or machines, even this war-torn land or great war machines like this Hind. We are not machines, though. War does have meaning to us. I don’t know if I will ever find the words for what it all means to me, but the meaning is definitely there--I can feel it. And maybe that makes the meaning even more special, that it is something we make, unique to us, not some fact of nature. We own it--it is ours to feel, to know, to tell. When the coffins are driven down the street draped in flags and we stop and salute them, that has meaning. When I shake a man’s hand one day and the next he is gone, that has meaning. Not to the land, not to this Hind, but to me, to us. To each of us as individuals, and as members of our cultures, ourselves and our enemies alike. It may be forgotten with time, but that doesn’t make it any less real or important. 37 OCCASIONS One morning, the Hind is gone, like it was never there at all. Thuesen goes home a few weeks before I do, and I stop standing by the airstrip. Then, I also leave, finally, and try to move on with my life. Sometimes, I think about that place, the land that is probably much the same and will probably continue to know more war. I wonder what became of this Hind and whether I could ever track it down. If I could, I know what I would do. I would stand and look at it, letting it take me back to that place and time when the sun rose over it at Bagram, imagining the sun and breeze on my face and feeling the meaning that place has to me. OCCASIONS Identification of the Integrin Subunits within Bovine Chondrocyte Cells for Tethering to PEG-thiol Hydrogels By Saikripa Radhakrishnan Principal Investigator: Dr. Stephanie Bryant Tissue Engineering Lab 1. Abstract Osteoarthritis occurs when the cartilage between joints such as the hip or knee wears out. Current therapy options treat the side effects such as the pain that arises as bones grate against each other. Tissue regeneration, however, has the potential to treat the disease instead of the side effects of the disease. Specifically, hydrogels are gel structures that house cells. They can be injected into the human body and degrade to release cells that adhere to the joints. These cells can subsequently promote cartilage growth to prevent osteoarthritis. Hydrogels are designed to be biomimetic, which means that they closely resemble human tissue. I shall study one variable that makes the hydrogel more biomimetic: the tethering mechanism between the integrins on the cell surface and the extracellular matrix. My research goal is to identify the integrin subunits in bovine chondrocytes and ultimately synthesize the binding sequence. This sequence can be incorporated into a hydrogel to make it more biomimetic. 2. Introduction O steoarthritis is a condition that arises as cartilage degrades between joints, thus causing bones to grind against each other. Cartilage is composed of four main parts: water, chondrocytes, proteoglycans, and collagen (Simon, 2012). Chondrocytes are the basic cartilage cells, and collagen is the protein that binds to the chondrocyte to support the joints (Simon, 2012). Current therapies either treat symptoms of pain or require invasive surgeries. Tissue engineering shows promise in alleviating osteoarthritis by introducing chondrocyte cells into the damaged region in order to regenerate the degraded tissue. Researchers in Dr. Stephanie Bryant’s tissue engineering lab found that poly(ethylene glycol) (PEG) hydrogels can entrap chondrocytes within the PEG mesh system to support new tissue production to restore an injured joint (Nicodemus, G.D. & Bryant, S.J., 2008). Now, we are interested in creating a hydrogel system that is more biomimetic. Here, biomimetic is defined as the best imitation of the native tissue environment in vitro. Our lab goal is to successfully entrap chondrocyte cells into a biomimetic hydrogel for long-term regeneration studies. My research goal is to investigate one of the variables that can make the hydrogel more biomimetic: the tethering interactions between the integrins on the cell surface and ligands in the extracellular matrix. I shall study the tethering mechanism between integrins on the cell membrane surface and the ligands in the extracellular matrix in bovine chondrocyte cells. This information can be applied in the tissueengineering field at large to synthesize a hydrogel with an environment that is most suitable for native tissue regeneration in vitro in order to implant tissue into a degraded joint. Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 38 This project will give me experimental expertise in my pursuit of an MD/PhD dual degree. I hope to become a physician who integrates tissue regeneration research with the medical field because there is a heavy overlap between human research and medical practice. The research project will allow me to hone my fundamental skills in tissue engineering research. I shall be learning how to set up experiments and analyze results in order to produce meaningful results. Additionally, it will help me understand how my project relates to the human body and contributes to the field of tissue engineering. 3. Background Osteoarthritis is the most common form of arthritis and occurs most often in joints such as the hip and knee (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2013). There is no cure to osteoarthritis, though current treatment options can slow down the degradation of cartilage. Doctors prescribe medications such as Tylenol or Ibuprofen to relieve the pain while other nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) such as aspirin and naproxen are intended to reduce inflammation at the site (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2013). Otherwise, physical therapy or occupational therapy can strengthen the muscles around the damaged region in order to improve the functionality of the site (Mayo Clinic Staff, 2013). Ultimately, invasive procedures such as surgery and joint replacement may be the only option for treatment, though these options do not necessarily prevent the onset of osteoarthritis. The obstacles associated with these options include lifelong treatment and numerous follow-up hospital visits. Due to the obstacles in traditional approaches, tissue regeneration is a viable option. Tissue regeneration has the ability to introduce tissue towards sites that lack these cells to counter specific diseases such as osteoarthritis. It is different from current techniques in that it could treat the issue of tissue degradation instead of alleviating the pain that arises from this condition. Current researchers found that the polymer PEG is a medium that has the potential to encapsulate chondrocyte cells into its mesh structure so that they can be introduced to the site of degradation (Nicodemus, G.D. & Bryant, S.J., 2008). The benefit of using the PEG polymer is that it can be synthesized in many ways to form hydrogels that are biomimetic. Other individuals in the lab are studying variables such as the chemical composition, the mechanical strength, and the mesh size of the hydrogel in the lab to most closely resemble the human knee joint. My research project is to analyze the chemical interactions between integrins and ligands on the cell-tissue interface to synthesize a biomimetic hydrogel. 39 OCCASIONS Within the body, there are interactions between the cell surface, described throughout this paper as “cells,” and the extracellular environment, described throughout this paper as “tissues.” The cell membrane is composed of a phospholipid bilayer, with proteins and cholesterol interspersed throughout the membrane. Integrins are receptors attached to the cell surface that aid in attaching a cell to its extracellular environment (Seibel et. al., 2006). These integrins are composed of an α and β subunit (Humphries, 2000). Collagen and other ligands bind to specific integrins and thus reinforce the cytoskeleton of the cell (Humphries, 2000). Further, these ligands are involved in mechanotransduction between the cytoskeleton and the extracellular matrix. protein and introducing it into our hydrogel matrix, I can encourage the encapsulated cells to tether to the sequence, and therefore to the hydrogel scaffold. There are 11 α subunits (α1, α2… α10, and αv) and 8 β subunits (β1, β2 . . . β8) (Seibel et. al., 2006). Mathematically, there are 88 possible combinations of subunits, and thus there are 88 possible integrins. Previous research by Seibel et. al has uncovered the integrin subunits expressed in humans that bind to extracellular matrix ligands (Seibel et. al., 2006). The following table, Table 1, outlines the integrins that associate to the ligand collagen, which is my interest in this project. 5.1: Isolate the genes responsible for integrin binding within bovine host cells Integrin Subunit Combination Ligand Bound Functional Role α1β1, α2β1 Type I collagen Mediation of differentiation signals in early osteoblasts α2β1 Native collagen Adhesion to matrix αvβ3 Vitronectin, osteopontin, fibronectin, fibrinogen, denatured collagen Adhesion to matrix β1 integrins Native collagen, fibronectin, osteopontin Adhesion to matrix α1β1, α2β1, α3β1, α5β1 Types I, II, VI collagen and fibronectin Matrix adhesion β1 integrins Collagens and fibronectins Cell survival Table 1: Integrin subunit table for binding the ligand collagen It is not known what differences in integrin expression occur in isolated cells and in the cell-tissue system (Seibel et. al., 2006). The difference in expression arises because of different interactions with the extracellular matrix. As well, it is not known which ligand sequence the cell’s integrins recognize and therefore bind to. By identifying the specific amino acid sequence of the ligand 4. Aim My aim in this project is to identify the integrins within a chondrocyte in order to design a peptide with the ligand binding sequence of interest and therefore synthesize a more biomimetic hydrogel. 5. Methods First, I shall isolate cells and tissue specifically from an adult bovine host. Once the cartilage has been isolated, various digests strip the cartilage down to chondrocyte cells, the fundamental part of cartilage. RNA can be isolated from cells and tissue through a RNA isolation protocol. This will be stored in the -80°C freezer until use because RNA degrades rapidly at room temperature. A reverse transcription protocol then will convert the single-stranded RNA to double-stranded cDNA (the complementary DNA strand from the single-stranded RNA template) using the specific primers and dNTPs. The sequence of interest will be amplified using Polymerase Chain Reaction (PCR). The steps within PCR are denaturation, annealing, and extension. Denaturation, occurring at 94°C, separates the cDNA sequence into two single-stranded DNA sequences (Vierstraete, 1999). Annealing, occurring at 54°C, is when the RNA primers that fit exactly onto the DNA sequence attach (Vierstraete, 1999). The last step, extension, occurs at 72°C (Vierstraete, 1999). During this step, the dNTP bases elongate the DNA sequence. PCR involves adding a “master mix” of different genetic chemicals (like the dNTPs) to the cDNA sequence. This combination will then be tested with each of the integrin RNA primers. Integrin primers are known RNA sequences that correspond to specific α and β integrin subunits. 5.2: Identify Integrins in Bovine Cells by Gel Electrophoresis Gel electrophoresis will be run on each of the 19 primer sequences. This step is done to separate the DNA that was amplified based on size (Experiment 2: Gel Electrophoresis, n.d.). Bands that are present indicate which primers are able to attach onto the DNA sequence and amplify the DNA (Experiment 2: Gel Electrophoresis, n.d.). As well, the band tells us that the primer gene is present in the RNA isolated, and the intensity tells us how prevalent that gene is. Last, the size, which will be compared against the DNA ladder of known sizes, crosschecks the identity of the primer gene (Experiment 2: Gel Electrophoresis, n.d.). Once the different bands are present and identified, literature searches will eliminate any subunit combinations that are implausible based on the tissue/cell conditions (Seibel et. al., 2006). Immunocytochemistry tests, like histology assays, will also support 40 OCCASIONS our conclusions of identifying the combination of α and β subunits that form a specific integrin. Histology assays image the components on the surface. The histology assay binds a specific antibody to the known α subunit receptor. Then, a fluorescent antibody binds to the antibody that was just attached. Immunocytochemistry uses the light microscope to express fluorescence. Therefore, if we see fluorescence, we can say with certainty that the α subunit is present on the cell surface. This same principle will be applied to the β subunit to collectively identify the specific combination of the α and β subunit within the cells isolated. Once the identity of an integrin is known, literature searches designate what ligand the integrin binds to (to ensure that the integrin identified is in the right context). Further literature searches will unveil a specific attachment sequence (a small portion of the protein ligand). These steps will be the contingency plan specifically if the immunocytochemistry tests disagree with the gel electrophoresis data. Differences will arise if the DNA is degraded in gel electrophoresis. 5.3: Synthesize the Specific Peptide Sequence to Bind to the Integrin The formation of the hydrogel polymer is composed of the binding of the PEG- thiol polypeptide. This polypeptide monomer can be synthesized within the lab. This peptide is composed of a thiol (which tethers into the PEG hydrogel network to create the hydrogel mesh-like structure) and the peptide sequence (which tethers into the cell and therefore tethers the cell into the network). Using the literature, I shall design a peptide with the sequence that corresponds to the integrin’s identity so that the integrin attaches to it. Thus, the hydrogel mesh will be formed as the thiol network crosslinks to form a net. The peptide sequence, which acts as an arm, will attach the cells of interest to the hydrogel mesh. 5.4: Assess the Biomimetic Properties of the Hydrogel Synthesized I shall form the hydrogel and compare the tether-containing hydrogel against a non-tethered hydrogel to assess the cell response and production to ultimately regenerate tissue. Specifically, mechanotransduction of a tether-containing hydrogel will be compared against a non-tethered hydrogel. Without tethering, I have seen that encapsulated cartilage cells rearrange away from higher mechanical forces because they can move within the hydrogel. I expect to see that mechanical forces are more evenly distributed within a hydrogel as they are tethered to the hydrogel. This information will ultimately help create a hydrogel that is biomimetic. 6. Schedule Summer 2013 (June 03, 2013 – August 19, 2013) Goals 1. Learn the RNA Isolation Protocol, Reverse Transcription Protocol, and PCR Protocol from Ashley Pennington. Implement these techniques on the isolated DNA independently. 2. Complete preliminary Gel Electrophoresis and analyze the data with Ashley Pennington and Stacey Skaalure. 3. Perfect the technique to avoid contamination. The contingency plan here is to complete all protocols in the Cold Room (4° C) to prevent RNA degradation before finishing the future steps. As well, try to complete all steps back-to-back without freezing the samples in between in order to reduce shock to the samples to prevent degradation. Further, try snap-freezing the samples to immediately freeze the samples. 4. If necessary, complete the immunocytochemistry assays on the samples of data to crosscheck the identity of the integrins. Fall Term 2013 Goals 1. Using a finalized set of data, identify the most plausible integrins present within the cell surface and identify the peptide sequence of some of the most prevalent integrins. 2. Synthesize this peptide sequence and attach it to the PEGthiol hydrogel monomer. Form the hydrogel structure. 3. Complete the mid-year Senior Thesis requirements. Spring Term 2014 Goals 1. Test the degradability of the PEG-thiol hydrogel with the tethering mechanism. 2. Do short-term and long-term mechanical tests and cell viability tests on the tether-containing hydrogels encapsulating chondrocyte cells compared against a nontether-containing hydrogels encapsulating chondrocyte cells. 3. Do immunohistochemistry tests to assess the degraded products of both types of hydrogels. These tests provide conclusive results on the most biomimetic hydrogels. 4. Complete the Senior Thesis final paper and present my findings to a panel. 7. References Bronzino, J. D. (2006). The Biomedical Engineering Handbook (3rd ed.). United States of America: CRC Press. Experiment 2: Gel Electrophoresis of DNA. (n.d.) Molecular Biology Cyberlab at the University of Illinois. Retrieved on June 23, 2013 from http://www.life.illinois.edu/molbio/ geldigest/electro.html. Humphries, M. J. (2000). Integrin Structure. Biochemical Society Transactions, 28(4): 311-339. Mayo Clinic Staff. (April 9, 2013) Osteoarthritis. Mayo Clinic. Retrieved on July 1, 2013 from http://www.mayoclinic. com/health/osteoarthritis/DS00019. Nicodemus, G. D., & Bryant, S. J. (2008). Review: Cell encapsulation in biodegradable hydrogels for tissue engineering applications. Tissue Engineering Part B: Review, 14(2): 149-165 Seibel, M. J., Robins, S. P., & Bilezikian, J. P. (2006). Dynamics of Bone and Cartilage Metabolism (2nd e.d.). United States of America: Academic Press. 41 OCCASIONS OCCASIONS Simon, Harvey, MD. (May 31, 2013). Osteoarthritis. University of Maryland Medical Center. Retrieved on June 23, 2013 from http://www.umm.edu/. Vierstraete, Andy. (August 11, 1999). Principle of the PCR. University of Ghent. Retrieved on June 23, 2013 from http://users.ugent.be/~avierstr/principles/pcr.html. Hole-y Devotion By Emma Gardner 8. Appendices I shall interview Stacey Skaalure and Ashley Pennington alongside speaking with Dr. Stephanie Bryant to crosscheck my interpretation of the data and to advise me on future steps for my experimentation. I sat down at the table as I had a thousand times before. They’ll love you no matter what, and that is all that matters. Truly, I had no idea what the outcome of this conversation would mean for the future. My heart was pounding, and I knew that if I didn’t get this conversation off my chest, it was going to haunt me as it had been for years but would become worse. Unconditional love is what family is for. We’ve been raised to have our own educated opinions. My sisters and my mom took their places just before my dad and I. I felt my face turning red as I set my fork down, and, without warning, my lips had betrayed me: “I don’t believe in God.” It wasn’t that I wanted to taunt my mother, but I had already made the assumption that her reaction would be worse than my dad’s. At this point, my face felt hot and my heart raced. I had never experienced the shame that presented itself in a physical form. The heat in my cheeks matched that of the fire you weren’t suppose to touch while the beat of my heart matched that of my race to hell. My mom, my idol, looked at me as if I was speaking a foreign tongue. Without reason, I repeated myself: “I don’t believe in God.” Immediately, her hazel eyes began to swell with tiny droplets. This is what you expected. Just relax. This is okay. You don’t have to agree with everything. Although I kept repeating nearly the same things to myself, when the tears began to consume napkins and my dad’s stare seemed to penetrate what soul I still believed I had, the shame washed over me. My mom became unfamiliar while my dad became angry. Once she was able to regain herself, the truly difficult part began: “What did I do wrong?” This question she repeated a few times before My dad politely hushed my mom, who was still blotting tears before he spoke. “What would your grandparents think if you told them that?” I knew full well what he meant by that. My grandparents had become the only reason I went to church at all. My grandparents meant more to me than most anything, and my dad knew that. For my grandparents to think less of me would crush me, and he knew that, too. Maybe I should have told them first. At least they wouldn’t cry. Grandma would be upset a little, maybe, but she would understand. My poppa would ask me why, but he would ask by means of curiosity, not disappointment. Maybe I should have asked them how to approach you two. The shame I felt was unlike anything I had previously experienced. This was not the shame you felt being caught stealing from the cookie jar at age five and being placed in “time-out.” This was not the shame you felt being caught lying about where you really were with your best friend at sixteen and being grounded. This was not the shame you felt bringing home that less-than-impressive calculus exam score at eighteen and having to watch your GPA take a dive. This was the shame you felt would never quite leave. This was my shame, my reason to be silent. I didn’t even take a bite of my meal; instead, I excused myself and spent the remainder of the evening in my room. I pushed what had transpired to the back of mind and did homework, knowing that my parents would be in my room in due time to confront the issue. I read “Salvation” by Langston Hughes just weeks before I found myself in my room that night. This poem, another assignment for my AP Language and Composition class, was the first time I If I were to ever believe in God, it would be for my grandma. Of all the people that have told me how to hold myself, how to act, how to pray, how to live, none of them would have allow me to breathe on my own if they could have managed it. she even looked at me. You didn’t do anything wrong. You’ve loved me unconditionally, but I refuse to submit anymore. She rhetorically asked me why I didn’t believe and then listed all the things she believed she could have done to avoid this. It would not have mattered if we went to church more; I stopped going before the family did. It would not have mattered if we prayed before meals more; I stopped before I had the chance to start. It would not have mattered if we were involved with the church more; I lacked the ability to enjoy the company. Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 42 connected with a reading in a way the comprehension questions did not cover. Hughes describes a boy surrounded by his congregation, trying to see God in order to be saved. The prefatory scenario taking place in a room full of adults pressing young children to understand God is what causes the little boy anguish and anxiety. The anxiety coming from his inability to feel connected to God and the anguish that brings him to lie just to escape the church walls and cry himself to sleep was something I did not think anyone understood but me. 43 OCCASIONS To recollect the joys that church brought me when I was much younger comes with ease. At an age when pleasing my parents was the best way to end the day, I took pride in getting my Sunday best together prior to bedtime. I took pride in getting up early the next morning to comb my untamed curls, to pull my dress on (and always smooth out the wrinkles), to pull my frilled socks up (and always fold them over evenly), and to buckle my Mary Jane shoes (and always use the third hole). Why did it matter what I wore? Which bird of prey was staring down on my choice of attire? I would put in the barely visible earrings because too much jewelry gives the wrong idea and never lip-gloss because that’s inappropriate for church. What wrong idea does a six-year-old portray with an extra bracelet and shiny lips? You should be ashamed. I would dutifully help my mom get my sisters ready, and then we would be off. Weren’t we all in this place of worship to do just that? Worship. Why were we worshiping this figure anyway? The pastor was reading from the big book and interpreting it for us, telling us how we should live our lives week by week. The elders surrounding me didn’t ask questions. Who is he to tell me what I can and cannot do? Each of these worshippers surely lived beyond the walls of this entrapment, yet they all sat and nodded. Amen. Does he even know my name? In school, we are expected to interpret on our own, so why do I have to accept this man’s--this complete stranger’s--interpretation? My parents didn’t come to my room. I sat in solitude and felt numb. I thought it would feel great to remove this weight, but it had come to be anything but a relief. The shame had subsided just barely, and I was able to think back to why I had come to this point in my life. As if a broken record, I was six, again, and again, walking into that Littleton church, giggling with my best friend. Although we did enjoy church, our devious smiles were the result of the doughnuts sitting just outside the church kitchen. All we would have to do was behave for the twenty minutes before they would call the smaller children up to ask them questions. After the adults got a few laughs and felt that the children had expressed some understanding, our subservient shepherds would lead us to school, The Kingdom. The Kingdom was where we would either compete or reluctantly participate in any number of activities that occupied the two hours that service lasted. Participation equated to doughnuts, and I was not the six-year-old to turn them down. Why was that okay? Why was it acceptable to have six-yearolds trained to behave through a two-hour service by means of bribery with a sugary delight? I understand now that doughnuts and coffee after church was meant for the adults to discuss the sermon, discuss the past week, and discuss the personal facets of life. I went to church because I got to hang out with my best friend, see my grandparents, and eat a doughnut after two hours of games. How could I have known at an age where Mommy and Daddy know best that The Kingdom was a way to reel us in? How could I have understood that they may have been feeding us doughnuts, but they were truly plumping us up with ideologies they did not want us to question? I thought I believed in God because everyone else around me did, but what does a sixyear-old know? It’s got to mean something more than showing up to church and saying amen to truly accept the almighty in your life, right? However enticing doughnuts were to my six-year-old self, they simply no longer held the same power as I got older. I stopped going to The Kingdom when I realized its children knew nothing beyond what they had been gavaged with under the interpretations of the bible. Were my parents really the only ones who raised their kids to have their own opinions (unless it meant believing in God)? Church resurrected as a math equation: two hours of fanciful daydreaming equated to one doughnut, but that no longer equated to fulfillment, and it surely never occurred by choice. About as soon as I lost interest in sitting in the pews with the elderly for two hours, we were going to a new church. This church didn’t have my grandparents or doughnuts. This church had, what my best friend and I called, babycare. Our mischievous escapes from The Kingdom were over. At this church, our mothers had to be physically present in the doorway before we were emancipated. A new church clearly meant that my mother had finally gotten fed up with all the drama that encapsulated the elderly in the Littleton church choir. That’s not what I would consider emulating God in your lifestyle. If it truly were “do unto others as you wish to be done to you,” critically judging others would not be an act to maintain. Besides, judgment on the final day is left to the big man upstairs, so why waste the time? Your paraphrases of this book are an abstraction: my clothes, my sexual activity, my beliefs, my language were not predetermined. By the time we stopped going, I knew that my mom was sick of them, though she didn’t confirm that until I was older. I had watched these people of God get one choir director fired, one pastor replaced, and several people removed from the choir. I should not have been expected to see these people as models for right and wrong. After all, when I think of all the people I know, the ones who aren’t fully fledged Sunday worshipers tend to be the kindest (and most accepting). They are not the ones telling me I have to be something, I have to do something, and I have to say something. They are not the ones disappointed in me for making a personal decision, either. My parents never came upstairs. My parents never said a word. My parents still haven’t said a word. For the first time in my life, the dinner conversation, my opinion, was not up for further discussion. Whether or not they disregarded the conversation as words from their deliberately stubborn teenager, reaching out about the subject will not happen unless I repeat history. I haven’t stepped in a church since, and I haven’t prayed. I never told my grandparents because that shame, my dad’s words, burns brighter than the desire for me to discuss it. This is me. I didn’t have to be placed in a church basement to feel as though there was something closing in on me, like I was alone. I didn’t have to sit amongst the congregation to try to see God and fail. Was I failing God for not looking in the right places for Him? Was He failing me? Was the search as simple as closing your eyes? But why was there nothing there? Closing my eyes to say Amen was just like closing my eyes to go to sleep; it was just like blinking. I’ve had an imagination my whole life, so if God appears in different forms to different believers, why was there absolutely nothing? I’d shut my eyes tighter if that’s what it took. I’d try different places if that’s what it took. But it didn’t seem to matter how often I tried, how often I went to church, how often I prayed. I saw nothing. 44 OCCASIONS !!! Oh my God. My very first thought after answer the phone just before ten on what I thought was just another summer morning. July 27, 2013, could not have come as more of a horrifying reality check. My grandma had a stroke. I was terrified, but being the oldest and having neither of my parents home meant that I was to explain what was going on to one younger sister and then withhold the information from the other. My mom came home to take my sisters and me to the hospital, and shortly thereafter reality transformed into a nightmare. Grandma has a grade-four tumor on her temporal lobe. Grandma has cancer. The real tears began that evening and have revisited our family throughout this more than once. “This hospital is a great hospital. I was real sick when I got here, and I’mma tell you that they do good things here. Ya’ll be in my prayers. God is good.” My whole family had been sitting with my poppa as my grandma went in for another MRI four floors above us. Why was that necessary? This older man had stopped by and said those few words, and to my immediate family it may have been a kind gesture, and part of me wanted to be thankful for people like this man, too. If God didn’t prevent this science, he surely is going to fix it. Your faith does claim everything happens for a reason. I would love to be enlightened as to why my grandmother (and poppa) must suffer through this experience. This is a matter of science, of genetics. I’d rather not lay blame, but if we’re going to praise him now, I just have to ask one question: Why a grade-four tumor? If there is a God out there that helps his angels, which I do believe my grandma is, why was she the one to get cancer? It should have been me: punishment for the nonbeliever. If I were to ever believe in God, it would be for my grandma. Of all the people that have told me how to hold myself, how to act, how to pray, how to live, none of them would have allowed me to breathe on my own if they could have managed it. My grandma, the only person I’ve ever seen as a true person of God, is the only one who has never given me lessons in “how to.” Instead, she offers the advice I have needed over the years. So why is she being tested by God? My grandma has accepted her tumor in a way that I have not--and in a way I do not understand. She is not afraid of passing because God has given her more than she could have asked. “If it’s my time to go, I’m ready.” When my grandma said that, any shame that still cornered me faded. I’ve conquered the predator. My grandma can be at peace with a fatal diagnosis because she has God on her side and can still be the rock in our family. My grandma was enough for me to understand that my peace didn’t have to be dependent on my family’s supporting my decision. My peace came from standing up for myself, from questioning the one thing I wasn’t supposed to. God is good for some, and some isn’t me. My grandma’s words broke my heart because I don’t want to let her go, but those same words enabled me to see that it was okay for me to not believe in the same thing because I’m happy. This is me. I do not believe in God. I am not ashamed. I am at peace. I am happy. Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 45 OCCASIONS appear where his torso had been. One mouse click later, and you’re watching an American soldier with a helmet cam recording him and his squad bogged down by heavy enemy fire. There are even videos of whatever drone circling a vehicle from miles above before dropping its payload on the target with the press of a button. Destruction Through a Screen By Zach Hykan I ’ve never fired a gun more powerful than a .22; I’ve never seen an explosion in person larger than the fireworks display that the Coal Creek Golf Course puts on every 4th of July; I’ve never been around a military presence that had a direct influence on how I live my day-to-day life. I’ve never even been in a fistfight with anyone, let alone armed conflict. But, despite never having seen the brutality of war firsthand, it still has a presence in my life that I see every day--a presence that I still struggle with understanding to this very day. As a child, my favorite things focused on war and combat. In any game I played, I was the grizzled soldier who made it through the hellfire with a handful of scars and one-liners. If a video game or movie was coming out that had anything to do with the armed forces, I’d be there to give up my money and go along for the ride. I can’t fathom counting the number of men I killed in my imagination or I saw die on a screen. What’s more, I loved every minute of it. I even had occasional thoughts that someday I might join the military, and then I could finally be as good as the guys I saw in these stories-the ones who did their job no matter what and always seemed to go home with their buddies and live to fight another day. But, my understanding of war and what it actually entailed began to change with one forty-some-second video I saw in the seventh grade. I was sitting in my parents’ study playing Counter-Strike on the computer as I always did. Back then, I could never seem to find anything worth doing---typical suburban kid problems. Hundreds of dollars worth of TVs, movies, video games, and everything else imaginable cluttered the house, but I still thought that there was nothing to do. I ached for something new to come into my life but found excitement in escapism instead. Then, one day, I saw a sidebar link to a video that sounded awesome. It had the sort of generic title that riddles the YouTube sidebar nowadays, something along the lines of “Terrorist gets hits by mortar, FLYS off roof.” Instantly, I wanted to watch; I’d seen countless war movies and some footage on the news of troops marching and completing training exercises but never any actual combat footage. The real thing had to be better than any game developer, Hollywood director, or even my own imagination could create. There would be no corruption or interpretation by an outsider; it would be authentic. So, I pressed play. The first thing I noticed was that everything seemed brown and similar. The sky, the buildings, and the ground seemed to blend together into some kind of ugly haze. Practically nothing was distinguishable from its surroundings until the camera zoomed in on OCCASIONS a tall building in the middle of the frame. As the camera zoomed in, I started to hear this strange popping noise that faintly emanated from the background noise of the movie. There was one pop, then another, and then one last one. Screams of panic came from behind the camera, and I realized the noise was that of rifle shots ringing out from a sniper positioned on the top of the building. Suddenly, a dark object flew out of the top left of the screen, impacted the roof, and erupted into a cloud of debris. Immediately following the blast, shouts of joy came from off-screen. It seemed strange that people should feel so happy about a rooftop strike; I couldn’t grasp why they were cheering until I rewound the video to just before the shell hit. I restarted the video to try and determine the cause of their joy. The second time I watched the video, I knew to look for the mortar round flying in from the side of the screen, but I also looked off to the right side as well. Once the shell impacted the roof and the rubble began to rise from the explosion, a blurry shape soared off of the opposite side of the building--an object nearly impossible to make out, except for the flopping arms and legs attached to the sniper’s plummeting body. As the sniper crashed down towards the earth, the unchecked limpness of his arms and legs made it clear the man was dead before he hit the ground below. The world is more connected than ever before, and this means our ability to see and experience the other corners of the world is unprecedented. It took me years to realize it, but there is always combat and the chaos of war happening. It isn’t just the hulking soldiers that I idealized in my youth that are impacted, but everyone in these areas. I’ve never faced war myself, but I’m one of the lucky few in that regard. Across the world, people are subjected to these brutalities, and I can watch them knowing I’m safe from these horrors. This inability for them to escape the harsh realities of their existence is something I can’t understand, but what’s even stranger is how I can see this suffering through such a disconnected lens. How do I react to this? Do I take issue with the violence and its justifications? Do I feel disgust for the loss of life, even when it’s in selfdefense? Unfortunately, the answers to these questions never come easy, and I ju st as often find myself turning off the screen and going into the world I know, haunted by the knowledge that many corners of the world don’t know the peaceful existence I’ve had the privilege to be born into yet thankful that I’ve never had to face the cruel realities they’re subjected to. The second run of the video ended, and I sat quietly in the study, thinking. That man had been alive just seconds before that video ended, and now he was dead. And not just dead, but people were happy to have him gone. They literally shouted for joy as his body plummeted to the ground below. And why shouldn’t they have? If he had his way, the sniper would have killed them. But, that didn’t make me feel any better or worse about the situation. It didn’t make me feel much of anything; it only made me think about what I had seen, about how I just watched a man die, not make believe, not with CGI gore or blood packets--just a few popping noises, a cloud of dust, and the shouts of happiness that followed. That video was the first combat footage I saw that wasn’t from the TV or Hollywood, but it wouldn’t be the last. Ever since then, I have become increasingly aware of how much of this kind of footage exists. Facebook, YouTube, and a simple Google search could all get equally, or even more, explicit footage from anywhere in the world. From the comfort of your own home, you can see a member of the FSA taking pot shots from a hole in the wall no greater than the size of his head and then move literally seconds before two holes 46 Contents Occasions Home PWR Home 47 OCCASIONS OCCASIONS My birthday growing up always fell on the first day of school. Happy birthday. I guess that’s why I have never really appreciated my birthday like my peers do. To me, it just feels like a reminder of passing time. Another year of the forty to sixty I have left—according to Wikipedia. That, or an excuse to call attention to yourself for a day. Like the day is yours. Like nobody else was born on that day. Like nobody else means anything Maintaining Balance at Sea By J.P. Whitehead 1. T his down comforter is it, man. It’s hypothermic out there. I’ve got this little bubble of body heat, and I plan on keeping the fire stoked till two in the morning. I’m all plugged in, too. Everything will be charged-up come sunrise. But I’m not going to sleep till my eyelids fall effortlessly. 2. All people in this grey world are capable of feeling some bundle of outlying emotions that, when taken as a whole, resemble something someone once spoke of called love. By this attribute-the capacity to love--all people in this grey world are also obsessive compulsive. Let me explain myself. Seated at your wooden table, you position an unassuming book so that the length of the spine sits perfectly and inexplicably between the grains. There is no reason for this spatial anomaly, nor is there any reason to glean from this odd encounter any satisfaction, but you do. And that’s it--right there--that satisfaction of conjuncture. It is that moment when two separate and otherwise independent objects created by completely different people suddenly make sense when positioned just so. It is as if neither had truly existed in absence of the other. That is love; coincidence. When I look at the world, everything begins to appear as that book on the table. Things mysteriously and without any clear motive effortlessly fall into place with one another, creating beautiful, existential meaning from context. Call it obsessive compulsion, or love, or coincidence, or whatever, as long as I keep from delving into the why. It is simply happening, and that is reason to rejoice. semester--a semester of total ignorance, blank-faced in a state of absolute indifference. But here I am now staring at this thing, silent, motionless. And it’s slow. It wobbles and flops and drifts lazily. For twenty seconds, this leaf is as free as it will ever be. All year, it struggled for this little, brief, lofted dance. And it’s so slow. My eyes roll down to see it land directly on top of where some road worker spray-painted the word “VOID” (seriously, can’t make this shit up). Some girl with her nose in her phone because she’s too important for “awareness” and “symbolism” steps down right on top of my little leaf friend. Yeah, so it goes. The metaphor slapped me in the face like a frozen salmon. It’s tough not to acknowledge that here I am trying my hardest to wiggle off my own branch. But, seriously, what if I do? What if my lazy descent is met with cold pavement and the tread of shoes filled by twentysomethings? What if I end up crunched up next to gutter-trash? I don’t want that. I don’t think anyone wants that. I know my leafbuddy didn’t want that, and, shit, I’m going to live it up for that leaf while I still can. He had twenty seconds to show his stuff. I’ve got between forty and sixty years--according to Wikipedia. 4. When I look at you, walking to class, walking past me, I want to talk to you. I want to start building something, and I want you to help. I want to send the world hopping over a jump rope, with you and me giggling like crazy, swinging the tether between us in circles around the globe. When I see you, I want to talk to you. I want to build something, and I need your help. But then you’re behind me, still walking to class, still thinking of school or your weekend or whatever. I’m just smiling at the thought of jump rope with you. 3. 5. I was walking down the street that I live on, taking in the season, and a leaf fell from its tree. I was fucking floored. My dad’s father was born on Independence Day. My dad’s brother was born on Halloween. My dad himself was born on St. Patrick’s Day. My sister and my dad’s sister were both born on Mother’s Day. Two generations; all holidays. The answer to your question is: yes, I have told girls about this in the past to make myself appear interesting; results vary. Hear me out--it’s the anticipation. The billions of years leading up to me standing here observing a leaf on its way to the pavement. Imagine waiting to see a movie, just waiting in line for three billion years. You’d enjoy the movie, regardless of its technical or aesthetic merit, simply because you waited. Leaves fall every day, but I had walked past this young narrowleaf cottonwood for a whole In fact, I was also born on a holiday: Labor Day. Perfect--a holiday for one last day of laziness. I do not know if this is significant to my character, but sometimes it seems like it is. 48 On my last birthday, I turned nineteen. On my last birthday, “Mind if I have some of your grilled cheese?” He looked down, still chewing, swallowed and said, “Yeah, sure. There’s no way I can finish all this.” For a while, I just sat there with him, eating grilled cheese. I started to understand the safety he felt in hot yellow velvet. Wyatt told me that, as a young and confused boy, he would visit I said that love is coincidence--and it totally is, but what if it were constant and casual? Permanence is boring, you feel me? The primal thrill of life occurs only in the context of a greater plot. Birth, life, death. The excitement and struggle comes out of establishing structures that will hopefully outlive you; things with a less predicable outcome, stories that don’t end with yours. my friend’s girlfriend found him cold with a garbage bag full of nitrous tied around his head, and then I went to a concert. On my last birthday, I learned that you and I and everybody else are nowhere near as important as we would like to think we are, even on our fucking birthdays. 6. I have five roommates. They all have birthdays. None of their birthdays falls on a holiday. One of my roommates, Wyatt, is always worried about something. I can tell. His girl gave him trouble a few weeks ago; he cooked up a total of five boxes of mac-and-cheese over the span of two days. If you don’t quite understand the correlation, let me try another example. He didn’t do well on a midterm; quesadillas for a week. The kid crutches on dairy. It has gotten to a point where we are spending a considerable amount more on cheese and milk than other groceries to accommodate every trauma in Wyatt’s life. his grandparents. Every day at lunchtime, without fail, Wyatt’s grandfather would plop a plate of golden toasted gooey yellow grilled cheese in front of him. He stopped to emphasize that the grilled cheese back then was always consistently amazing, and that he could never live up to his grandpa’s culinary legacy. As is wont to happen in the throes of adolescence, the trips to his grandparents grew less and less frequent. What few trips they did make, Wyatt would meet with unyielding reluctance. Besides, he was too old for grilled cheese. I can’t say for certain whether most kids want a good relationship with their grandparents, but I do know that most kids are not sure how to relate. I can say that you’re never too old for grilled cheese, and that I genuinely sympathize with lactose intolerant people. That shit sounds terrible. 7. Anyway, I guess I’m happy that I’ll die someday--forty to sixty years from now. I’m terrified of not dying, actually. A month ago, I came home from class, and I knew he must be distraught because with his left hand he clutched half a triangle-cut grilled cheese sandwich. I looked down at his plate to see two other untouched sandwiches and two steamy bowls of tomato soup. His eyes looked like he wanted to talk, the same way competition-eaters look like they want to talk, so I sat down next to him on our green suede couch. His mouth still stringing hot cheese, he swallowed causing his eyes to bulge. I said that love is coincidence--and it totally is, but what if it were constant and casual? Permanence is boring, you feel me? The primal thrill of life occurs only in the context of a greater plot. Birth, life, death. The excitement and struggle comes out of establishing structures that will hopefully outlive you; things with a less predictable outcome, stories that don’t end with yours. Impermanence allows for love, and it’s easy to see why. The symbolic marriage of two egos feels more profound with the additional requirement of inevitable separation. 8. Through melted American he mumbled, “My grandpa is in the hospital again.” I started searching for words. I wanted to console him somehow, but he’s just staring at me, chewing slowly. His eyes bulging with every swallow. I waited a moment, looked down at the plate, and then back up at him. There is a hole in the upholstery on the roof above the passenger headrest. You can tell that whenever it ripped, what little life the poor thing still possessed just sort of leaked out. But, still, we bought this old van to drive it till it breaks. The odometer has a crack across the sixth digit, but I like the suspense. 49 OCCASIONS 13. 9. But love is coincidence, and ours was contrived. A few days ago, I was riding the bus and a cute girl walked in. Her hair hung carelessly in curls over her face. She sat down next to me and rested up against my legs like an armrest until she realized her mistake and apologized. We giggled, rode on in complete silence, and got off at different stops. It is insignificant, but, for the sake of closure; I would have gladly been her armrest. Someday, perhaps our vertices will match up with uncanny precision, and we’ll be sure that something about me fits into something about you, and maybe with that knowledge we might smile more around each other. 10. I often wonder what it’ll be like when I forget about you. I wonder how you’ll be in my memory, when you’re not waltzing between my ears every god damn hour of the day. I think when someone forgets you, you can feel it. What am I but something to look at, to hear, to think about and remember and forget? All I’m saying is: I’m just as real in somebody’s head as anywhere else. To say “it is what it is” in Spanish, all you have to do is spell out the word socks. S-O-C-K-S. That’s all you have to do. 11. Right now--like, right now--it’s 1:15 am, and I’m switching between this essay and a chronology of events in the Soviet Union from 1920-1945. A chronology, as it would be, which happens to read a lot like a list I once made of the most depressing things I can think of. That being said--maybe I’m overtired, but I keep drawing parallels between Stalin and myself. Hopefully, I’m overtired, but hear me out--I think maybe Stalin is misunderstood. I’m not saying he’s a good guy; I think that assessment has been accepted long before this essay, but I just don’t know if his motivation is necessarily evil. I think it’s possible he’s just insecure. Maybe he stays up late thinking about stuff way too much--I do that sometimes. Actually, I do that all the time. If I ruled a country as big as Russia and couldn’t sleep every night because I was overthinking things, I’d probably start interrogating and killing as many people as I knew too. Okay, maybe I wouldn’t do that. I must be overtired. Stalin was a dick. 12. I saw her yesterday. She was walking to her house on 16th Street. I was walking to buy cigarettes. She looked up at me and smiled; I did the same. I tried to say “hi,” and I think I did, but a little bit of spit exited my mouth with the word. She laughed. I stopped smiling. We’ll see who’s laughing in the Gulag. 14. I think of the headlights of passing cars flashing momentarily across my bedroom wall at night. That brief, anonymous luminance. People enter and exit our lives often and on accident--without ever truly understanding their effect. I think of the many souls that skirt past mine. That’s how you’ll be. I think when someone forgets about you, you don’t just disappear into a void in their head. No, you hide, and you wait. Maybe you can never leave, trapped under their meninges forever, floating about in spinal fluid. If that’s the case, you better get cozy. Don’t be sad. Dormancy is not death. Don’t be sad. When someone forgets about you, you don’t just slip away into ether. Remember when we folded that paper airplane, with care in every crease? And how we climbed up onto the roof of the old YMCA? Remember when we tossed it into the wind, how it drifted and dove and swooped around until we lost it, shrinking ever-smaller into the scenery? That plane is still there, somewhere--up a tree, crumpled in the gutter. 15. Maybe when someone forgets about you, you stick around in the shadows. You quietly and occasionally paint their walls with light. You whisper in the silence. Waiting to jump out of their mouth, you sit between the synapses, hoping somehow a signal sparks your way. Well, I suppose that’s good news for the forgotten. The way I see it, nothing stays buried; you either decay or get dug up. Whatever. Spell socks. he truth is that I’d never send her to a Gulag. No, all I wanted was to come back to her house with her. I wanted to open the door and smell lavender. I wanted to cook her chili when it got cold. I wanted to get drunk and laugh with her. Besides, skinny thing like her wouldn’t last a month in a work-camp. 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